PJ#014, RAPE, RAVAGE, PILLAGE AND PLUNDER OF THE PHOENIX, VOL. I

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PJ 14

CHAPTER 7

REC #1 HATONN

SATURDAY, APRIL 14, 1990 9:30 A.M. YEAR 3 DAY 241

Hatonn here in the Light of the Radiant One. Good morning and blessings unto our friend who comes to have communion with us this day. This will not be lengthy, Dharma, for there needs he a personal visit, please.

TIME!

Zechariah states that the flesh will fall from the bodies before the bones can hit the ground. THIS IS THE EFFECT OF THE NEUTRON BOMB, MY FRIENDS. Yes, they are available but you can further surmise that there will be smaller wars with simple little atomic bombs prior to the "big one'. It may not work that finitely but probabilities speak thusly.

As your counting goes and measured by the prophecies, mankind has set his play to scripting and the "big one" is not due until just before or about the mid-90s. You witness how quickly things can change in your dimension as the people change their minds regarding adventures.

Let me remind you of a few items for consideration--look to the signs! Before the Global 2000 Plan can be put into operation in a massive manner, the citizenry must be disarmed. That, brothers, means "they" have to get those assault weapons out of the children's hands by a massive "military/police" sweep of the cities. Then, they must coerce you into Gun control laws and so far they haven't quite convinced you of the advisability of doing that. The fact that more murders and assaults are conducted with weapons of kitchen knives and pipe lengths seems to carry no impact to the public.

The American citizen MUST BE DISARMED PRIOR TO THEIR EN­SLAVEMENT.

So what happens next? Where do you go from here? You get busy and keep the truth spreading. You may need to do with your taxes that which many of the public are doing with their census reports--DON'T! STOP MAKING IT EASY FOR THE SLAVE MASTERS TO CAPTURE YOU. There is such ineptness in the systems that "govern" you and in the "mail system" that con­nects with you that even though not receiving something doesn't count--the courts still have to PROVE you deliberately practiced fraud. You must not do that until you have many to stand with you for we need no more martyrs--just "lose" these things and then go to bat with all the ammunition given you with which to function--corporations, Constitutional laws, etc. If you continue to allow passage of laws which further imprison you, you have only yourselves to blame for the consequences.

No, I do not suggest riot or pickets--I suggest a firm stand on your own legal and God-given rights. Quietly make arrangements so that there is nothing "worth" taking from you and if they come for your weapons--give them an old one with your blessings. Never FIGHT the system--simply defend yourselves when the system becomes an imminent danger to you and/or yours.

Remember, where there is no vision, there is no hope; where there is no hope, you will have no freedom and, dear ones, when there is no freedom, there is no escape and people will perish! Whole nations will perish. YOU STILL HAVE TIME TO ACT AND REFUSE THE HANGMAN'S NOOSE. IF THEY CANNOT FIND YOUR HEAD THEY CANNOT PUT THE NOOSE ABOUT YOUR NECK. PONDER IT.

What will it take to wake up the people? That depends on how well we do of our job. What you don't see in your tiny pods is that others are waking up-- the lack of return of the census forms tells you as much. Hold to those tid-bits of truth and the truth will spread.

We needed to lay groundwork in our own Journals to be able to have the public read our forthcoming Journals which will help you know that which to do. You cannot feed uncut beefsteak unto a three week old infant.

It appears that the wondrous Temple of Solomon is in full intention of being builded in the 90's and by the late 90's will be in the final stages of construc­tion. This will allow for the leader, "Anti-Christ", who will be admitted to this throne by the Catholic Pope, and the stimulation toward the all out and total War of Armageddon.

During that same period, there will be many wars and skirmishes of heated wars, then finally the holocaustal years, followed by more severe quakes far above the eight point reading on your measurement scale--for all sorts of man-made reasons. There will, therefore, follow that there must be tidal waves, land shifts, hurricanes, violent earth disturbances and devastating disturbances from your atmosphere.

BUT JUST YESTERDAY ATON SAID - - - - -!

Yes, he surely did--He said that you can change it if you choose to so do. If you do not choose such steps you will march right along to the script already laid forth and in action.

Right under your noses you see the signs for they cannot be missed. You have already had a taste of the Bible Prophecy in which it states the devastation of the pestilence will befall men prior to and during his ending years. Do you remember the plague of grasshoppers which infested many of your own west­ern states, including Oregon, Arizona, North and South Dakotas, New Mex­ico, Texas and other growing regions? Your own EPA declared those areas as emergency zones and have dumped tons of poison on those areas. Let us get something in focus--just eight (8) of these grasshoppers, known as locusts, can devour as much as one cow and when you compute out the damage of 100's of millions of locusts- - -well, the day of pestilence could be at hand. These crea­tures have all but destroyed the growing fields of China--and thusly, there went tons and tons of your reserve grains--in secret.

And what of your little 'palm bug' which is a relative of the beetle? It has been thriving on your earth's crust for more than three and a half million years. It is immune to every insecticide man has invented. They travel in groups of several dozen and their growth rate per female is 30 babes per week. To make matters worse, up until the late 70's and early 80's, not one palm bug has struck out against man. TODAY, THERE ARE THOU­SANDS OF CASE HISTORIES WHERE SUCH A BEETLE BUG HAS HOSPITALIZED HIS PREY (HUMANS). Their bite is infectious and very hard to heal.

The massive computer network to be used for the "Mark of the Beast" is now installed and functional as the base unit in the Colorado Springs Mountain wherein is a military/government city within the mountain. Then, of course, you know that the elaborate satellite system is now functional and the Society for World Interbank Telecommunication is operable. This system is con­nected to the main control computer in Brussels, Belgium where it will be virtually safe from the major world disagreements.

Your weather conditions are controlled now by beam systems, drought is worsening in growing areas and floods are devastating other areas. There is no such thing as accidental "acts of God" any longer--man has taken over the "accidental" controls.

Countries are now at total unrest against one another. You are presently facing kingdom against kingdom, government against government and gov­ernment against itself---and, of course, man against man, brother against brother and thus and so. There is not one family untouched by the confusion and destructive influences and discord with fragmentation. Every known function of your government and survival status is in crisis--economy, energy, food resources and on and on. The New World Order, the One World Bank and the One World Leader are all but in completed format. There is not one thing untouched from your churches to your atmosphere.

THEN WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER?

There are but two things to consider in looking ahead to the dreamless future. The first and foremost is SURVIVAL and the second is a SURVIVAL PLACE. If you are to survive, and there must be at least a remnant which survives, then you have a couple of avenues of approach in a most human physical manner.

It shouldn't require much imagination to visualize a large city after the catastrophe has struck--Mr. Rockefeller's groupies gave you some dandy motion picture pictorials of how that can be. In such a scenario, communications will cease immediately, transportation will completely stop and there will be no food shipped into the markets. This scenario can happen in some of your major populations simply from "natural" disasters. I can assure you--man is already in the mode of savage barbarism, and he will become totally without moral or legal restraint.

The obvious, then, is to get located out of the major metropolitan areas. Get to the largest land mass at connecting fault lines. Basically, get away from coastal areas for you might very well get swamped by tidal wave activity as well as disconnection from the mainland plateaus.

Rural community living has more to offer than any city now known on your placement. These smaller communities have much to offer and rural com­munities have better ability to survive than the great masses of humanity in the cities.

The rural community will come together in sharing and support much more rapidly and love will bond you into a cooperatively working group. When love is felt and practiced, the effort of sharing the pangs of hunger will be felt far less. Further, with anticipated preparation in place, survival rations can be quite adequate.

There must be pockets of working villages which can supply shelters durable enough to withstand the elements which shall become horrendous. There must be a variety of living necessities to pass the tribulation in wholeness--fire starters, woodsmen tools, etc. They will have no method of arriving from elsewhere so groups must be prepared. There must be a remnant to guide and survive as the masses awaken and "remember". All is known but only "forgotten", but as the final act comes about, the topography of your earth will be changed and lands will become islands and transportation between popu­lated areas will become all but impassable.

There must be locations whereby fields can be planted and irrigated and yet, you must also be located in such manner as to continue to function in the world in which you dwell presently. To obtain funding for the factories neces­sary, you must form exceptional "business" opportunities. You must further protect all assets in every possible manner to be able to collect the foods and items necessary for the remnant to survive. That means that basically the en­tire village must be given opportunity--not just the few who will be overrun.

You will note that the journey from here to there seems imperceptible but that is not necessarily so. Nothing is ever quite as it appears. Do not dwell on that which might be--dwell on the moment and continue in thy work and when more desperate signs physically strike thy neighbor you can do wondrous things in a very short time. Further, as you awaken and rewrite of your script-- the possibilities become reality. At some point the remnant shall "remember" their Godness and create that which is desirable.

The first thing of urgent need is to become comfortable in the "moment". If you dwell in the "what ifs" and magnitude of the perceived journey, you will falter and fall. Look unto the moment and free your thinking minds for action. Accept that things are the way they are and stop "fighting" anything. Accept that a thing is the way it is, stop of your judging in the realization of the truth that all only IS! Demand that your inner mind give unto you direc­tions and solutions and it will be so--if the task is laid forth in sincere anticipation, the answer is compelled to appear. The parts and pieces will come and if you are alert to each moment you will begin to recognize them as they come forth and you will know where to utilize them. THAT IS CREATING! THAT IS MANIFESTION FOR THE WHOLE COMES FROM THE PARTS. EVEN THE WHOLENESS OF GOD AND CREATION ARE BUT THE COMPONENT PARTS PULLED INTO ONE-NESS.

MOMENTS OF CONFIRMATION

The moments of confirmation will come into focus. The looking upon the countenance of a given "one" will become truth cemented within your own knowingness. Many of these experiences can never be shared for it is most individual indeed. Recognize that as you are touched, it is yours to hold for­ever. God will always give unto you that which you honestly petition and you will be given to KNOW when thing is correct and whereby and wherein you can be fulfilled as to purpose and participation.

Allow God's countenance to shine upon you---look into His beingness and allow the simplicity of the IS-NESS of HIS presence. You must stop of the "struggles". God IS and is NOT a struggle. The illumination must come in the recognition of that moment of touch or vision of acceptance.

"But it would appear totally hopeless!" you would say. Nay, there is naught but hope, 'tis all in thine perspective. Doom and gloom? Only if that is your perspective. You MUST know the extent of the truth unto its bitter detail--and then, only then, can you the change through the hope and into perceived reality--‘tis your gift of life. If you begin your journey with the per­ception that you cannot do of the creating alone--so, until you realize the truth of it, take thy brother's hand and do it together.

Do you not see, precious brothers, as you let go of the things of evil that give forth only greed, sexual envy, competition over and for the perceived "prize", you gain power beyond any ability to touch you. POWER COMES IN THE RELEASING OF THE PHYSICAL "NEEDS RIGHT" AS LAID FORTH FOR YOU BY THE LIE. AS YOU "MOVE INTO TRUTH, YOU SEE THAT YOU NEED NOT THOSE THINGS AND THINE ENERGIES ARE NOT DISSIPATED AND DESTROYED. YOU BECOME THE ONE IN CONTROL AND YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES CEASE TO CONTROL YOU.

Always, however, aspire to the better and more abundant--expect it and it shall come forth. If ye move from dwelling--move unto another which brings even more pleasure and abundance--it may be a shack or a hovel, do not ever pre-judge the value of a thing or circumstance.

The passage through the transition shall be as easy or as difficult as ye choose it to be. It is anticipated that at least two-thirds of humanity will perceive it to be most heinous indeed. That means that one-third shall have it most pleas­ant--make sure you are in the one-third!

Every moment becomes the stepping forth into new experience. Man came forth from God in the creating of your environment in which to experience. You laid forth that which you desired as your stage upon which to act out your play. You knew the "lines" in the script when you came forth and you were having fun in being "bad" and being "good" and all the while you were "forgetting". You finally forgot what you came for and the game turned into an illusion of frantic entrapment and you have been desperate to find your way back into the pathway home as you don't like this play any more, but you have forgotten how to change it.

Ones become desperate to get home and all manner of vile appearing acts are created and death methods invented in order to try that route to get hack home--all the while the remembering would simply show you that it is won­drously effortless to return. All you need do is become one with the IS-ness and allow the memory to flood back within your being and the journey is over. When that knowledge strikes the consciousness--for the being experiencing will not usually realize such has happened, one of two things will occur. Ei­ther the frequency shall be so great that the return unto source will be instant, or through the acceptance of a purpose otherwise, you will go about your work in great difference of outlook and knowledge. The remnant groups are being allowed the acceptance in a positive manner which will allow for the continuation of functioning in the planetary density. Do you see, in the end all that is important, really, is THE WORD! In the beginning was the word and in the ending is the word---GOD IS THE WORD! All else shall be added unto thee as ye have need of it--but it will be by thine own actions and partici­pation. As more and more of you come into focus of the goal, the solutions shall come forth as a tidal wave.

Early on, in the presenting of the Journals we have projected many subjects--this is for the purpose of touching the consciousness of various interests. Ones will see and hear that which is intended and there will be a time of per­ceived sluggishness but you must release thy concern unto God and allow Him to do His work. There is nothing new upon your placement for you have all experience, all knowledge--therefore, it is only for you to remember that which you have tucked into your banks of forgetfulness.

There will come upon your place a great awakening and understanding for the very reasons laid forth above. Man is desperate and committing suicide in ev­ery imaginable form to reach back unto God. When the dawn bursts forth, man shall be in the seeing of it. Do not limit God in your efforts at removing limitations. Ponder upon it.

Nothing has "worked" so far. Nothing was supposed to "work" so far. It was never intended that things "work". It would not be a full experience if all "worked" in perfection--that was already present in the dimension from which you chose to come forth and experience. You lived in perfection and had no appreciation of it so you chose to create a place of experience and you simply have forgotten the path back. We of the higher brotherhood have been sent forth to work with you of the volunteer remnant, to remind ones of the way home. Further, we will be as patient as necessary to allow ones to return in the manner each aspect has chosen.

You can quit the task at any time you choose to so do. However, once truth and enlightenment have been remembered, there shall never again be the comfort of forgetting . You can quit - you cannot ever return into the un­knowing . As Dharma says, "Then I might as well go forward and get the job done. Touche! You are past the point of no-return, so you might just as well continue the walk with God and do of your work. None said it would be easy, only wondrous.

Look off unto the mountains and that which seems impossible to cross, is but an interesting hunting ground beneath the wings of the eagle. Perceive all from the eyes of an eagle and you will more clearly visualize the roadmap. But you must come into the knowledge of the negative existence as well as the beauty of the positive goal and then the most expeditious roadway will come into focus.

At some point ones must stop of the fretting and fussing about where the most secure and safe placement might be and when, to the hour, you might need of it. If you listen to your guidance you will be told when and where and if you miss of the knock on the door, so be it. You will never be given to know the moment nor the where in the intent of only securing your "perceived safety". Intent is always in the judgment of God. Go to a placement and relocation because that is where you can best serve and participate according to your to your choices--all else shall be added unto you. If one has chosen to pass dimensions, he shall do it from any location at exactly the proper time.

After passing into understanding of truth, you will further see why some things have been granted unto some of you out of their sequence so that you would cease distracting yourselves over inconsequential things. You are functioning in a human format and until you leave that density you will continue to func­tion in the impact of human domain. That does not mean that you need wal­low constantly in the mire of the human elements. Neither may you withdraw into an essence existence for you would lose of your value unto the mission.

Another secret for you ones--the ones who experience all this wondrous scat­tering about in astral travel, psychic peeking into the unknown, etc., have mostly missed of the point. When you are come into the knowledge of God you will mostly be totally unaware of same. You cannot experience God as an awareness of such and such a thing or feeling for it simply IS. You will, how­ever, become very discerning and recognize and be aware of that which IS NOT. You cannot force a state of being; there are no rituals, no colored shirts or flags, no crystals, no special phrases--nothing you do will give you the prize. The prize is found in the accepting and moving into the quietness and it will surround you like the light which He is. Nothing more and nothing less--it is there and it just IS.

Another little secret shall become quite amusing and interesting as you come into truth---all before has been a lie and you have forgotten that you can cre­ate and rewrite the lie. You can if you want to---most do not want to and thus the "probability" is that things will proceed exactly as the lie was originally written. You who have returned to serve at this time of passage, will move as the play goes for that is your agreement--preparation to function as the play unfolds. We will put the truth before the people--it is up to them, then, as to that which they will do with it and you, like us will accept the journey for it is your experience, also, but yours is a pre-agreement which already tinges your memory.

Further, if you train your minds to see only the beauty, the ugly shall be dis­solved by lack of energy. For instance, if you take a sewer pond and consider the beauty of flowers growing in pots or lily pads upon the pool--the place becomes a garden from the dung heap. If a drainage ditch across your property were landscaped, it would become a beauteous garden stream and pond. Learn to see the beauty and hear the beauty in all things and that which is dis­cord can become harmony.

It is as with the hawk which has been trained to kill another for his survival, if he learned to eat of the corn and seeds as the other birds he would be wel­come within the flock. Man is the same--man has been trained into his evil ways and must again learn that he can eat of the corn and live in harmony within the flock. It he does not, then he will perish from the evil and the doves of the flock can live in peace. The hawk blindly reacts; man can thoughtfully act. Think upon the difference. However, until the day that the harmony is present, the hens must be protected most carefully from the foxes and the doves from the hawks. So be it, for so must man have pain in the process. You shall learn to release of those things unto God who guarantees the bear­ing of the burden for He will give you nothing beyond that which you can carry, or ye shall be transformed and ye shall find the carrying of the burden quite easily accomplished. First, you must release it and accept that it IS. EXPECT that wondrous mind to present you with the way and so it must come to be. Never preset your expectations as to how a thing will come to pass--be ready for it to be of total unexpectation but take it when it comes--ye must be ever alert and think in multi-dimensions and aspects or ye might be in allowing a solution to slip past your attention. Especially in the occurrence of what ye perceive as error or negatives--look at all aspects from every angle, for the lesson play be great indeed and offer unseen opportunities.

Dharma, allow us to close this portion. I shall move to stand-by. Walk this day in beauty and peace for in all the perceived darkness, there is such light, precious ones. Even from the thistle bush comes the sweetest and most beau­teous flowers. AHO!

I AM HATONN, I am your brother; no more and no less--allow us to walk together. I am older and remember the way!

PJ 14

CHAPTER 8

REC #1 HATONN

SUNDAY, APRIL 22, 1990 10:00 A.M. YEAR 3 DAY 249

Hatonn present in the Light of Radiance. Good morning on this day dedi­cated to the greening of your planet. Mankind can clear on his nest if he but continues to grow in awareness. As man begins to give back unto that wondrous birthplace, She will return into abundance for nature heals without emotional restraint.

ENERGY

The great display of the billowing poison and sulfuric acid clouds spewing from the power production plants about your world, and the display of the horrendous problems of nuclear plants and toxic storage, as well as the less­ening water flows for your hydroelectric facilities presents a most formidable plight unto mankind. What alternatives might you have in the production of electricity?

What can you do with the emissions of automobiles that you can clean your nesting place and still have mobility? It is far more simple than you plight re­alize. You work under the assumption that you must invent a "wheel" of some sort to have the technology--nay, nay, nay! It is all invented and into service--just NOT by you the populace. You must look beyond and into the actual factual problems and persons who keep these wondrous things from the people.

There is technology available on your Earth which could place new worlds into space for the relocation of the masses and, in the least, grow food for the continuation of life until perfection could be brought forth upon these outer placements.

A LITTLE NEWS ITEM

In Pleiades alone, are large populations of Earth humans who were relocated at prior time periods for extension of experience and growth. In a way we are the elder brothers who come now to offer assistance and we shall do so openly as soon as you can clean up your aggressive hostility for hostile energies will not be relocated to innocent star systems. If man cannot look into his per­ceived "future" and come again in to harmony with God, he shall simply march his already projected path to destruction upon your little orb. You are prison­ers upon your isolated placement for the technology for traversing star sys­tems has been denied you.

While the conspirators and treasonists of your planet have utilized technology sufficient to find relocation placement during temporary recovery of Earth, they have denied you the knowledge of the existence of these things.

You have had the method of production of "free" energy since prior to Nikola Tesla's death of physical being. You have had technology for earth buildings since the hogan was first utilized and you have not used of it.

You have destroyed your planet in every imaginable manner--you as a species have raped, pillaged and plundered until you have destroyed of your own birthplace.

Instead of ceasing behavior that overpopulates your planet, you preach "safe sex" in your third grade classes or moreover, tout intercourse as the thing to do in all instances. Do you realize that you now have some 6 billion people on your planet (your estimates are indeed low) and you are doubling that popula­tion figure every 12 years. That means that by 2002 you will have over 12 bil­lion people. You have devastated your atmosphere and ruined your growing fields---how does your future look to you???

Dear friends--look at the other planets in your solar system and see that which is human survival on those places. Human cannot survive on those places as in the garden setting of Earth. You are a long line of planet destroyers. We who come now represent remnants of prior human annihilations. Can you not come into realization that God would not leave you to such fate without sending guidance and solutions for your plight? Most of the planets in your system were as yours, with rivers and fields and they were destroyed--finally--­by atmospheric holocaust and heavens of fire.

Can you change your course? Of course--IF YOU WANT TO! But you shall not find it an easy path for, with the afflictions upon you already, there will be a transition of some two/thirds of your populations. But before they go, there will be further devastations of your growing seasons as man and nature con­tinue to tamper with the seasons and water supplies. You will have created the sequence of events which must now be played out in the reality. There­fore, even if the healing is brought about, which it most certainly can be, there will be great, great loss of life of physical beings and need for pockets of places for survival in good health. A sick people cannot till the fields and build and even repopulate. It is the cycle of dying and renewal--I know of no easy way in which to tell you these things. Hopeless? Oh no, it is total hope for if change and unification does not come about all will be lost. You who awaken and hear and move through the trying times will grow in abundance and beauty beyond your imagination. Nature herself will bring of herself back into balance with or without you for she, too, is a living, breathing cre­ation within The Creation and as such, is just as important as any or all of you humans.

HOW CAN YOU DO IT?

You do it by opening your minds and hearing truth, seeing truth and then, acting in truth by coming back into the balance of the Laws of God and The Creation. You will have to stop the lustful, greedy carnal behaviors, teach your children truth and discipline of actions and intent and learn the truth of how it is NOW. You must know the details of the evil conspiracy and then you must stand firm in rising above them who would destroy. You will do that through knowledge and the use of your God given rights and powers and the tags and rags of what is remaining of your Constitution. You will stand to­gether as an unbending God power and demand your God-given freedom and removal of the evil slave-masters.

Yes, the poison has seeped into the very joints of your body of civilization. The evil has consumed all but a tiny remnant--but you have all you need if you will but use of it.

This is our thrust at present. You are not even convinced of our presence--how can you trust us when we say you are God-power in manifestation? You can't--but if we tell you truth and you find it all to be confirmed and re-con­firmed as being so--you will trust us and believe us when we tell you of your capabilities. We are but your brethren but we KNOW of our oneness with God and Creation and we can cause you to remember your truth of being--no more and no less. When the mass of man realizes his power, the show will al­most instantly change. As a matter of fact, if the blood flow of money were cut off, the conspiracy would begin to crumble instantly--instantly. But you have been convinced you must support the octopi of the slave-masters.

The major question arising from groups in dispute over taxes, for instance, shout out, "But who would support the government if everybody stopped paying taxes?" and, "Well, just we little people pay our taxes, the huge corpo­rations and money holders get all those write-offs and don't pay their share!" Ah, do you not see you have answered your own objection! You are con­trolled and if you refused to transfuse these leeches with your blood re­sources--they would die of starvation! But you have been brain-washed and called "cheaters", ad nauseam.

Can you not look it up for yourselves? For this is just an example--taxation, as handled in your country, is 100 percent (100%) unlawful by Constitutional Law!!! Does anyone hear me? It is unlawful by your own Constitution! The conspirator slave-masters are diligently and as quietly as possible, rewriting your Constitution so that you do nothing until you are convinced what they "TELL" you is truth and they make big unlawful fines and incarcerations to prove the lie unto you!

The Justice system has been raped and is your enemy--completely controlled and operated by the conspiracy--but public attention still carries great force because Satan is a worker in the dark, secret and underground routes. He never confronts--he always shoots in the back! Yes, the job is conceptually overwhelming. One step at a time, chelas--one step at a time. First we crawl (but ones have crawled before you and can assist you), then one step by step and then jog and then run and the race is won. But first must be truth--integrated so you can see it in a lump and go unto your libraries and confirm our messages and then there is no army which can stand against us--for when asked in, in peace by enough of you brothers, we will stand in form beside you and WE KNOW OUR POWERS. WE HAVE TECHNOLOGY WHICH WILL INSTANTLY HALT THE CONSPIRATORS AND THEY KNOW IT; THAT IS WHY YOU ARE TAUGHT FEAR OF US FOR THEY KNOW ONCE YOU HAVE ASKED US IN TO SERVE GOD BESIDE YOU---EVIL IS THROUGH!

BUT WHEN?

Ah, the hard part coming up. First you begin by acceptance of truth and recognition of we who are sent to help. Then you must change of your perceptions and some will never give up the ways of the world, so you will have some real emotional hurdles to surmount.

Greed, Power and Lust are your devouring "termites" in your dwelling founda­tions. You are physical beings and you have been brain-washed into believing all wondrous things come from achievement of fleshly pleasure, money and power and control of the largest numbers of others possible. "Love" has nothing to do with it--sex is used for ALL THE WRONG REASONS--ALL. It is the downfall of mankind. It is used for control, power, lust, abuse, excite­ment, coercion, mistaken breeding of innocent offspring which are usually murdered at the very hands of the ones creating them--and on and on and on. I repeat that which I have said over and over--homosexual "LOVE" is blessed--homosexual sexual "BEHAVIOR" is abhorrent as is the misuse of sex be­tween any persons on any occasion what-so-ever.

Allow me to point out something which you might check out from a pair of homosexual males, as a for instance. Let us say that homosexual activities of physical experience has now given AIDS unto both partners but one is much more ill than the other. The body is physically drained of energy and I guar­antee you that with that drain of physical energy--sex becomes the last desired thing, especially sex of the typical nature of fun and games. DOES THIS MEAN THE RELATIONSHIP OF TRUE LOVE IS GONE? OF COURSE NOT--YOU WILL NOW HAVE FRIENDS IN TRUTH AND LOVE IN TRUE GIVING AND FULFILLMENT RESULTING. THESE ONES WILL HAVE BECOME UNITED IN PURPOSE AND THE EMO­TIONAL BONDS REACH BEYOND ANYTHING HUMANLY PHYSI­CAL. HOW SAD THAT TRUTH MUST COME TOO LATE! THE LIE LED YOU TO DESTRUCTION AND TOO LATE TRUTH PRO­NOUNCED ITSELF IN FULFILLMENT AS A SOUL EXPERIENCE OF LOVE UNMEASURED. BUT SOMETHING ELSE OCCURS VERY OF­TEN IN THE ABSTINENCE OF THE SEXUAL BEHAVIOR AND THE HOPE AND TRUST OF A LOVE RELATIONSHIP AND RISING ABOVE THE BANAL---ONES ARE HEALING, AND HEALING TO TOTAL WHOLENESS. IF THEY RETURN TO THE BANAL BEHAVIOR, THEY ARE AGAIN ATTACKED. IT IS BECAUSE MAN IS ACTING OUT "EXPECTED" BEHAVIOR AND THERE IS NEVER THE TRUTH IN IT.

THEN MAN LASHES OUT IN TERROR AND ANGER AND ACTS-UP AND CAUSES MORE DESTRUCTION IN HIS FRUSTRATION RATHER THAN COMING INTO PEACE WITHIN AND CHANGINGS OF HIS "ACTIONS".

WHEN THE ACTIONS AGAIN FLOW IN THE STREAM OF GOD-NESS AND BALANCE COMES AGAIN WITH THE GOD WITHIN INSTEAD OF THE EFFORT AT HIDING FROM THE GOD-HEALER WITHIN--MAN SHALL RENEW AND REMEMBER THE WAY. WHEN YOU STOP "USING" EACH OTHER FOR YOUR OWN EGO POWER--YE SHALL FIND YOUR WAY. NOTHING CAN THEN STAND AGAINST YOU--FOR GOD IS CREATOR AND CAN UNCREATE ANYTHING WITHIN THE CREATION! SO BE IT!

Will man do these things? Most will not! That is the fact of the probabilities of it. Some shall and it shall be enough! To achieve thy truth and strength of God­ness--you must come again into the remembering of a love that surpassed all un­derstanding and which IS and evermore shall BE! When you have remembered and wipe away the veil of forgetfulness, ye shall rise again as the eagle and soar throughout the heavens in freedom. THAT, BROTHERS, IS THE HOPE AND TRUTH OF IT.

WHY DON'T YOU TELL US ALL THE
"STUFF" WRONG ON EARTH DAY?

Your Earth brothers are doing quite well even though the groups of most out­standing notability are now infiltrated by the conspirators.

Further, go to SIPAPU ODYSSEY and reread the story. Remember, it is a short story for the purpose of motion picture "treatment" layout. There is a portion which will be a major portion of the movie--in holographic projection--of the plight of your world, and we put it to print over three years ago. We must be allowed to cease the re-writing and you ones do a little re-reading. If a child's whole youth is spent in nothing but potty training, how shall he ever learn to read and write? No one is going to do anything "for" you--you now have available thousands of books by daring authors and researchers who tell truth and are now offering it abundantly and totally unto us for the using. We will project the truth and you will then get the books and confirm for self, we have not time to digest it for each of you--our Journals must be short, shock­ing and wake you up--then if you give a flip for your perceived future, you will investigate further as we give you resources. We will honor no man who pro­jects lies without conclusion of truth but we will honor, above all, those who have researched and discovered truth and brought it unto you. God works in mysterious ways, His wonders to perform--there is much of truth in the Holy Books for that is another trick of Satan. A lot of truth but sock it to you with the lies of lust, etc., and trick you into helplessness. Well, you are not helpless unless you choose to be--that is strictly up to each of you!

Most of you need not even risk thy hair-do to change of things, as these ones must lay their neck across the blade-grooves of the guillotine--for they break of the way for you and clear of the underbrush that the path is open for your feet. They give all and ask naught of you--but their legacy to a planet will be beyond measure. Who will join them? Who will walk beside this publisher and writer and bringers of this truth to humanity? There are others, hundreds of others and contributions are being funnelled into integration in this place­ment that truth in all areas of perception can be sent forth upon the life waves. Blessed are you who respond in even the most brief notes, for the way is frighting. When the word goes forth from a Henry Kissinger to "silence that writer, whoever it is" comes forth, it is terrifying indeed for these ones hold incredible physical human power. But they cannot hold a candle flicker to the flame of God which surrounds this chela.

What is this scribe like? Does she wear a halo? Perhaps she radiates rainbow lights and has wings? No--she is a 58 year old grandmother who must dwell in all ways as the human in impact, experience and loneliness for brother shar­ing. These ones are given no more than are any of you, except that they spend time with us on the other end of the line. Dharma is given to see much and remember much but in the human consciousness, it is mostly removed for she must not be made to bear such a burden. The others recognize of our pres­ence and honor our friendship and the joy of sharing--we are but your elder brothers.

Dear ones, do not think you protect these ones by hiding of the Journals--no, get as many out as possible. Safety comes in publicity or murder becomes obvious if the murder is of ones of public knowledge.

Well, what of the horrendous projections of Global warming, greenhouse ef­fect, pollution etc.?

WHAT OF GLOBAL PROBLEMS?

On this day the inquiries rise like a wall of fog. The Global Conspirators tell you that which they desire you to believe. Extraterrestrials, who live in a high concentration of carbon dioxide and synthesize nutrients as plants, were in­vited and came to your planet,--the ships were brought down and the beings incinerated. You are having an increase of carbon dioxide from so many rea­sons I have not room to outlay in this portion. However, you are not having increased global warming and records of your own scientists over the past decade prove it. You ARE having intensified heating in the summers in many, many locations and more frigid winters. The extremes are compounded to atmospheric and manual manipulation of atmosphere. You will see less and less seasonal changes and more sliding from, say, winter to sum­mer and summer to winter, etc. The "typical" seasons as you would describe them, are all but absent.

With the extreme temperature changes, deforestation, melting of your polar ice caps, etc., there will be catastrophic changes in conditions with increasing wind velocities, irregular rainfalls with extreme droughts and flooding. It will be for protection from the elements, as much as for survival of wars, that your shelter and reserve food storage shall be most useful. You are moving into a time of incredible extremes which man is not evolved sufficiently to withstand. You must have protections, as must your domestic animals and food plants if you are to survive the cycle of change. Do you not see? With care and prepa­rations you can produce in a different and more abundant manner and move through the cycle most comfortably--but it requires "COMMUNITY" action--community of brotherhood and holding on to your resources and carefully utilizing them. We can show you the way--you must do of it! There are al­ready ones upon your place who know how, they have simply not been al­lowed growth for with growth and independence comes freedom and the con­spirators cannot allow of it. They must thrust upon you rules and regulations which break your back before you can be successful in order to maintain con­trol of you.

For instance, the most suitable and stable building substance in the world is compressed earth and yet the planning commissions all over California refuse to fully permit the use thereof for it is both cheap as the dirt at the building site and durable into infinity--totally biodegradable as the earth itself and thus and so. I believe you get the picture? Utilized in domes it both withstands the elements in perfection, regulates the temperature as in a cave and can be radiantly heated for temperature control and cooking facilities though simple solar methods. IT HURTS TOO MANY BUSINESS KINGS. IT IS TOO IMPACTFUL TO THE MARKET RICH WHO WOULD STRANGLE YOU WITH DEBT, KEEP THE HOMELESS, TO MAINTAIN THEIR CONTROL AND GREED.

Do you not see that underground facilities suitable for emergency shelters could also be set up to house the homeless and that, in exchange for tending of the facilities and other public facilities? Oh blessed ones, I plead with you to SEE!

So be it, Dharma, for our intent is not to overload. I only petition that ones will reach up unto, the hands we have extended unto you that we might join with you through this trial of a planet and civilization of man in trouble. If you try to walk the path without God of truth and continue in the way of the mis-­directors (even of your churches), you shall not make of it in wholeness. We petition you to allow the words so that you can then base of thine decisions on the merits of the presentation, logic and pure reason. Beware of those ones who refuse to read or hear and petition you to do likewise--they are unwitting tools for your enslavement and destruction--without exception. Only truth can set you free and you must see and hear of it for there is no other way. Further, it is all by free-will acceptance or denial for none shall force or co­erce--it is simply "here it is, take that which ye will". Salu.

Let us close this portion in love and grace, for ultimately there is no other.

I take my leave and move to stand-by. May your awakening be gentle without fear--for God is within and fear is not of God. AHO!

Go in peace,

Hatonn to clear.

[wave]

PJ 14

CHAPTER 9

REC #2 SANANDA

MONDAY, APRIL 23, 1990 9:45 A.M. YEAR 3 DAY 250

Sananda present in the Light of Holy God.

Dharma, it is time, chela, to speak of the unholy methods of evil in places where it is all but impossible for man to accept. Perhaps this Journal should be entitled RAPE, PILLAGE, PLUNDER AND OTHER OBSCENITIES. We will write this day on this subject which is the unspeakable for in thy place it is a gentle rain God has sent for renewal and the blossoming of the violet flowers of Man. Honor those violet blooms which are a sign of life and truth unto you ones for they are more than Spring flowers--these particular ones were a sign from God for specific, purpose. So be it.

HONOR AND HUMBLE GRATITUDE TO SISTER CHARLOTTE

Readers, as you proceed herein you will be shocked and offended to the bot­tom of your senses. It is a time of revealing evil into the lighted public and ones have dearly paid the ultimate sacrifice to bring forth truth. The story we shall tell will be in first person as given forth by Sister Charlotte of a Clois­tered Order of the Holy Catholic Church. It speaks of the traditional path and treatment of little girl children entering into a cloistered order.

You will desire to believe it is, at the very least, the exceptional treatment and not the norm. Nay, it is the accepted treatment and those convents which do not function in this manner are the exception.

Prior to losing you readers who cannot swallow the truth of it--I suggest you investigate the "OPENED" convents in Mexico. The convents in your country are still kept in total secrecy. The treatment of the little nuns is so heinous as to defy believability--'tis so, dear ones--'tis so.

Some ones have managed to break free and dare to tell their stories. Most never make it into freedom and if they make it beyond the walls, they are sought after and killed. Sister Charlotte has been murdered. Her soul rests in peace for her ultimate gift to truth.

God and Christ have no place within the halls of evil. The Church of Rome is not of God; it is directly of Satan. Ye who will, deny this truth--but truth will "out'", brethren! We shall speak of many subjects regarding the religious paths but this day we will stay with this subject for it is heinous indeed and most dif­ficult for this scribe. We have chosen her to pen these things for she has no knowledge or predisposition to opinion toward the Catholic Church and knows naught of its doctrines or practices.

Who is Sister Charlotte?

Let us first refer to words in the Book of Acts, Chap. 6, vs. 7: "God's message was preached in ever-widening circles, and the number of disciples increased vastly in Jerusalem; and many of the Jewish priests were converted too...."

The history of the conversion of priests is not new, it was there even before the Roman Catholic Institution was established in its present form.

It was there among the Jewish people, a parallel to the present situation of the Roman Catholic Priesthood. As a matter of fact, the Roman Catholic Priesthood, in its present form with nuns, monks and priests as well as bish­ops, cardinals and popes, is a tremendous mixture of two religions, Catholi­cism and Judaism. We will see that even the very experience which comes forth from actual experiences of priests, monks and nuns at this present time brings forth more light in guidelines about the tremendous conspiracy which underlays the very existence of the so called Church of Christ unto this very day.

Through the presentations of these religious experiences of the lives of priests and nuns you will be given the greatest blessings of truth beyond comprehen­sion. It is through such testimony, such as Sister Charlotte, a former Roman Catholic Nun, that, even though her experience goes back but a few years of your counting, is accurate in description of conditions which exist in the Ro­man Catholic Institutions at this present day.

PERVERSION OF GOD'S WRITTEN REVELATIONS

In the Bible, it was already recognized that some of the Jewish priests were perverting God's written revelations with the traditions of men. See Matthew 15: 3-6: ". . And why do your traditions violate the direct commandments of God's " Today, the false priests of Rome are doing the same job under the spirit of the anti-christ.

You will find in this testimony that the doctrines of the Church of Rome never change regardless of her claims. The work of the spirit of the anti-christ preparing his bride, the Mother of Harlots (Revelations 17, 18, 19), is reli­giously clever indeed.

Christians must become informed and alert to the continuing heresies and blasphemies committed by the Roman Catholic Institution---especially over the past six hundred years, starting with the Emperor Constantine the Great as the first Pope and the actual first founder of the Roman Catholic Institu­tion as you would recognize of it. This may not be speaking historically--but is accurate in prophetic terms.

There was a revolution established against the Church of Christ and God Himself. This enemy of God has risen up against the authority of the only true God and Christ--by whatever name you would append unto them. Dear ones, this will not cease until the destruction of the entity as foretold in the Revelations.

In spite of Rome's attempted new image since the Vatican's projection in 1965, her "real" constitution declares and reflects no subjection to the person of the one they, themselves, call Christ--or unto his teachings. Those who claim that Rome is changing will only find very small changes in the form of presentation. The speakers still project the same lies as before and now it is done facing the people and speaking in their own language. There are no substantial changes or any signs of repentance of the blasphemous activities. This is true of the whole of the institution as well as for her Pope, clergy or laymen.

The only significant changes are taking place in the lives of those Roman Catholic priests and laymen who, under the condition of the Holy Spirit of Truth, are obeying God's call to be born again into the truth of his Laws and those of The Creation as handed forth by the Christos energies sent forth as the messenger of truth.

These, too, are the ones who dare to pronounce truth regarding those things which are perpetrated behind the walls of shrouded secrecy and evil.

Unto the ones who dare to speak truth we dedicate the memory of Sister Charlotte who stood strong in the forefront of truth and was therefore mur­dered.

You think it cannot be? Oh, dearly beloved ones of the lie, look unto El Sal­vador and the murdered Jesuit priests--murdered at the hands of the sanc­tioned troops of the U.S. and the heinous act is continued to be covered up by your own CIA and FBI. I use this example only to present to you the ease of cover-up of any and all things, and the powerful impact of all acts connected to the religious institutions. Terror and control of the masses is the intent. So be it.

I plead with you who read this Journal to go forth and research these presen­tations and confirm truth in thine own environment and leave this scribe out of your stoning, for she knows not of these things. Come unto me and I shall show of you the way!

These blessed ones who are in deed and fact, the martyrs of the true and blessed Church, are blessed and hallowed as the true Saints of the Body of the Christos. I further hold in reverence and highest honor the men, women and children who have been martyred by the evil Satanic beings who have become the Roman Catholic Institution. I stand before Satan and denounce him for that which he has done unto the body of God. For these things have I come again and so have the Hosts of Heaven and the time is short, my friends, for the day of reckoning is at hand.

I single not out the Roman Catholic Institution--I PRONOUNCE DENOUNCEMENT AND CONFRONTATION UNTO ALL WHO PRONOUNCE THEMSELVES MY BODY--MY CHURCH--AND ACT IN THE MANNER OF EVIL AND WORLDLY DEGRADATION. I SPEAK IN THIS PORTION OF THIS BOOK ABOUT THE CATHOLIC DE­BASEMENT FOR I HONOR ONE WHO WAS OF THEIR ENTRAP­MENT. Satan has taken over the pulpits of all the churches as established by the doctrines of man.

HE WHO SET HIMSELF UP AS THE LAW OF GOD WILL FALL: GOD HAS GIVEN FORTH THE LAWS AND THOSE OF CREATION AND NO MAN SHALL CHANGE OF THEM AND PASS INTO THE GLORY OF ONENESS WITH CREATOR. SO BE IT AND SELAH!

As the HUman is awakening it must be noted that this forthcoming testimony is more pertinent this day than when Sister Charlotte spoke the words unto all who would listen for she feared not her passage and, as she expected, she was tortured unto a slow and agonizing giving up of spirit. Unfortunately, Satan had already perpetrated all manner of torture unto her frail body physical--there was little left to defile.

I confront you, Satan, for I shall pull your evil out from all the dark recesses and ye shall stand in mine presence and ye shall be smitten and bound. Ye have debased our Father's creations and thine day of judgment is not long in the coming. Heed well mine words, ye who follow after this dark being of evil, for he shall pull you into destruction. I speak as one Sananda, one with and within God, Lord of Lords and Holy of Holies--ye of evil shall not be sus­tained! The Prince of Darkness shall fall to the Light! So be it for it shall come to pass in the generation present upon your placement. The day of ac­counting is nigh.

Unto thine presence, Charlotte, I bow any being in humble honor before thine love and giving as unto others who have suffered and worked in my name and truth. Know that I would take it upon mineself were it to be. Blessed be ye ones of my tribes and flocks.

May your words touch the hearts and truth of all ones who partake of this tes­timony. Your petition has been heard and is herein honored, that your pas­sage would not stop the word of truth from going forth. Your sacrifice shall only serve to spread your words unto the four corners of this troubled planet that your petitions in behalf of the incarcerated brothers and sisters within the prison walls shall bring cause to throw open unto the light of public display that which exists in the places of torture and evil. May you please sit with God as you read. Amen.

SISTER CHARLOTTE

Dharma, write as is given without changes, please, for it was spoken thusly:

First of all, I would like to tell you that I am not giving this testimony because I hold bitter feelings in my heart toward the Roman Catholic people. I couldn't be a Christian if I still had bitterness in my heart. God has delivered me from all bitterness and strife and delivered me out of all of that, one day, and made himself real and known unto me.

So, as I give this testimony, I am giving it because God delivered me out of the convent and out of bondage and darkness, and I must give this testimony that others might know what cloistered convents are. So, as you listen carefully, I trust that if I leave one thing in your heart it will be that I carry no burden against the Roman Catholic people.

I don't agree with the things done or the things taught, but I covet this role for Christ. I am interested in the souls of the ones in charge of those church places.

Christ went unto Calvary that you and I might know him, and their souls are just as precious as your soul or mine.

Having been born into Roman Catholicism, not knowing anything else or knowing the word of God, because we did not have a Bible in our home, we knew nothing about a wonderful plan of salvation. Naturally, I grew up in that Roman Catholic home and knew only the catechism and only the sheltered teachings of the Roman Catholic Church. And, because I loved the Lord, and because I wanted to do something for him, I wanted to give him my life. I knew of no other way for a Roman Catholic to give him a life other than entering a convent.

Naturally, as a believing Catholic I came under the influence of my Father Confessor, the Roman Catholic priest who had tremendous influence over my life. One day I made up my mind, through his influence among the influence of others of the faith, that I wanted to be a little Sister. At that time I thought that being a Sister meant an open order. I believed that up until the time I took my "white veil" and, until I was 15 1/2 years-of-age, everything was beau­tiful. I really had no fear for everything which was taught to me was along the lines of that which I was taught in the church prior to entering the convent.

And so one day, after having made up my mind to enter the convent, two of the Sisters came home from school with me. They were my teachers and I re­alized that my Father was home that afternoon and Father Confessor was in my home, likewise. Remember, I was a little girl and little girls were seen and not heard. In my family, you didn't talk when you were a child and adults were present. You did answer promptly if spoken to.

After a long discussion, my Father asked if I could say something and that was a bit out of the ordinary. I said, "Dad, I want to enter a convent." The priests had already been influencing my Father and my Father broke down and be­gan to cry, not from sadness, but from joy. My Mother came over and took me in her arms and she had tears because of happiness. They felt it wonder­ful that their little girl was giving her life to the convent to save lost humanity. Naturally my family was very thrilled about it and I was, too. But anyway, I didn't go for about a year after that and I got the call and my Mother pre­pared things for me and they took me forth and I entered the convent.

There was no place near my Mother and Father's home so I was taken about a thousand miles away from home. So I entered a convent boarding school. I lacked about two months of being thirteen years of age. I look back on it to­day and realize I was so homesick and so were my parents with their little baby away from home. At that time I had never even spent a night away from my Mother and had never gone any place without my family. That was the first time away from my family and I was very lonely and homesick.

After Mother told me good-by, and I shall never forget, and I knew they were traveling a long distance away from me and I had never realized in my life that I would never see them again. I had never planned to be other than a sister in an open order where I would not give up my family. If you listen carefully to this portion of my testimony you will understand why I say some of the things which I will say.

Now, it is that we sometimes say the priest is the body of Christ, because of the way the services were held. At seven years of age I would come into the church and I would first go to the foot of the crucifix and then to the feet of the Virgin Mary and then I would ask the Virgin Mary that I would make a good confession. I was just a child and the priests always prayed for everyone to make a good confession--to keep nothing back, tell everything and then ask absolution from anything which I might have committed. I would then ask Je­sus to have me make a good confession.

During that time at school I was to have gotten a high school education and a college education. Well, I got a high school education but not much college material. I appreciate that opportunity very, very much even though it was rather difficult for me. After they put me through the crucial training that you must go through to become a little novitiate entry into a convent, that training is rather outstanding as far as a nun is concerned and you know what it is all about after you have been in there for a little while.

INSIGHT INTO THE EARLY TIME OF TRAINING

I want to tell you just a little bit about how we live, how we sleep when we first enter into the convent so that you can understand a bit more about my testi­mony.

Of course as I entered the convent as a small child, I went on to school and continued in my training. But the day came when I would enter into another segment and here I will tell you about the "white veil". I didn't know very much about it but I had been told that it would be that I would become the bride of Jesus Christ and there would be a ceremony and I would rejoice in the wedding garment.

On a particular morning, they told me that at nine o'clock they would dress me in the wedding garment. Now let me share from where they get the money for the wedding clothes. A letter goes out to the child's father telling them how much money is required and then the wedding gown and the other things necessary are made by the other nuns. The family was always expected to send forth at least a hundred dollars but it was not realized that the clothes were reused and therefore, most all of the money was retained. None was ever sent back, all was kept at the convent.

The time came for me to walk down that isle and I was dressed in the wedding garment. I wanted to be holy and I wanted to be the bride of Jesus Christ. I recited the Rosary and I got down on my knees and crawled the distance of the separate stations of the cross of Jesus on his way to Calvary. Every Friday morning I crawled them, for I thought it would make me Holy and make me worthy of the task that I was to undertake and that is what I wanted more than anything in the world.

I would like to impress on your hearts; every little girl that enters the convent, that I know anything about, that child has a desire to live for God. That child has a desire to give her heart, mind and soul to God. There are many people who remark that only bad women go into convents; that is not so. There may be many ones who go into convents because they are great sinners but mostly the children are innocent and unknowing and thousands are influenced to en­ter into the convent to bring forth the money into the church.

The child is just a child when she goes in there and her mind and soul is just as clean as any child could be. I mention this for you hear so many things which are simply not true. Now after the training you become the spouse of Jesus Christ and, realizing the sequence of events, then you can follow me through the rest of the testimony with more understanding.

After the ceremony we are looked upon as parried women. We are consid­ered the legal spouse of Jesus Christ. Now every little girl who will take the white veil will become the bride of Christ and it is known that her family will be saved. It doesn't matter how many crimes they commit, banks they rob or how they drink, smoke or carouse; it doesn't make a bit of difference--the family will be saved if we, the little brides, continue in the convent and give our lives to the convent, or to the church. All members of our immediate family will be automatically saved. Many little girls go into a convent because we realize it is immediate salvation for our families. A little child who loves her family so much will feel this is the least she can do to save her family.

Of course you must understand that at that time our minds are totally imma­ture and we don't know anything about life. Ones don't know what is in the hearts and minds of little children and the priest is looked upon, by these little children, as God--the only God we know anything about. I thought the priest was totally infallible, I didn't think he could sin, I didn't think he would lie---I didn't think he could make a mistake. I looked upon the priest as the Holiest of Holies for I didn't know about God but I did know about the priest. I knew that anything I would ask of God is asked of the priest. For all knowledge the priest was simply God manifested and all would come forth from him.

After taking the "white veil" I was 15 1/2 years of age and everyone is good to me, and I'm living in the convent and I haven't seen anything yet, because a little girl who is brought through the bridal ceremony is subject to a Roman Catholic priest until they are 21 years of age and they are kept in the total control of the Sisters of the order. Now the church will tell you that the little nuns can come out of the convent any time they want to. I tell you this is a lie. I spent twenty two years there and I did everything I could do to get out and instead of releasing me they sent me into the dungeon and I even tried to dig my way out. I was more imprisoned than you can ever begin to imagine and it is the same with all the little nuns. There is no way out and you are watched constantly and I will tell you of the treatment as we go along in this testimony.

The priest came to me and told me that, "I believe you're the type who would be willing to give up your home, give up mother and daddy, give up everything you love out in the world, and the world so to speak, and hide yourself away behind convent doors; because I believe you are the kind that would hide back there and be willing to sacrifice to live in crucial poverty, that you might pray for lost humanity." He said, "I believe that you are the kind that would be willing to suffer," for we are taught to believe, as nuns, that we suffer for our loved ones and your loved ones that are already in purgatory will be deliv­ered from purgatory sooner because of our suffering. They knew I was willing to suffer, I didn't mind it, I didn't complain--they knew all of that for they had watched me constantly and knew me and that was why the grand Mother Superior began to tell me about the "Black Veil". Then, of course, you must know that I didn't know much of anything about a cloistered nun. I didn't know anything about their life, I didn't know how they live, I didn't know what they do; but this woman proceeded to tell me.

Now, many ones try to tell me in places I travel today, and Roman Catholics try to tell me all about cloisters and claim to have been in many and try to tell me all about them. But you know, a Roman Catholic can lie to you and they don't have to go to confession and tell the priest about the lie that they told because "they are lying to protect their faith". They are expected to tell any lie they want to, to protect their faith and never go to the confessional box and tell the priest about it--he would only commend them for protecting their faith.

They can do more than that, however, as they can steal up to $40 and they don't have to tell the priest about it. They don't have to say one word about it in the confessional box. They are taught that. Every Roman Catholic knows it and every Roman Catholic would be horrified to know how many of them steal up to that amount. Most of them lie. I have dealt with hundreds and hundreds of them and I have seen a good many of them then cry out to God to save them. Many of them first look into my face, into my eyes and lie to me until God gets a hold of their hearts and then they want to make light of it be­cause they know they have lied. As long as they remain Roman Catholic they are committed to lie, and the sad thing is that you can't expect them to know God because I believe God does not condone sin and, although He forgives sin, I believe that He does not condone sin, yet the truth of God is not taught in the churches. The teachings are specifically dedicated to that which is given to be taught and all the rest is banned from participation, even to the reading. A Catholic is not given permission to even visit in another doctrinal sanctuary without having to confess it as sin.

THE FATEFUL DAY CAME

Dharma, allow us to close this as it has been long and most difficult to hear. Allow a rest please. Thank you.

We shall continue from this point as we sit again. In love I stand aside. I AM SANANDA

PJ 14

CHAPTER 10

REC #2 SANANDA

TUESDAY, APRIL 24, 1990 10:30 A.M. YEAR 3 DAY 251

THE BLACK VEIL/SISTER CHARLOTTE

Sananda in Radiance to continue with Sister Charlotte's testimony. Peace and blessings be upon ye ones. I shall sit with you, Dharma, while we place this upon the pages that man might see and hear and understand. Selah.

Sister Charlotte:

They came to me and sat me down before them. The Mother Superior began to tell me how it would be. She began by telling me that I would need to spill my blood just as Jesus did upon Calvary, I would need to be willing to do heavy, heavy penance, and I would have to live in crucial poverty. Now I was already living in the pit of poverty but I thought that would make me holier and closer to God. I thought it would make me a better nun so I was very willing to live in that poverty.

On that particular morning, she told me what I would be wearing. She said I would spend nine hours in a casket and explained a number of other things to me. That was the most I knew about it, and I didn't really find out anything until I had taken my "white" veil.

On this particular morning in point, I was 21 years of age. But sixty days prior to my being 21 years of age, I would sign some papers that were placed in front of me and those papers were this: I would sign away every bit of inheri­tance that I might have received from my family after their death. Of course that was signed over to the Roman Catholic Church. Often times priests are enticing girls within the trap where the families have much property so that the Church will come into full inheritance of the child's birthright. I have rea­son to say to you that the salvation of your soul in the Catholic Church is going to cost you plenty of money. More than you can possibly know anything about--they are eager to commercialize on the life of that child.

On this particular morning, I asked the Mother Superior to give me a little while to think it over. No one forced me at this point and so I thought it over for a while and then one day I told her that I thought I would hide away be­hind the convent doors because I believed I could give more time to God; I could pray more and I would be in a better position to inflict more pain upon my body. I had no way of knowing the latter would be well taken care of with­out my participation. We are taught that God smiles down on us from heaven when we do penance, whatever the physical suffering might be, and the more the suffering the more the acceptance.

I didn't know how it would be. If you could only look into the hearts of little nuns, if you are a Christian you would immediately cry out before God in be­half of those little girls, because to themselves they are heathens. It doesn't make any difference as to the amount of education we might have--we are still heathens for we know nothing about this lovely Christ and nothing about any plan of salvation. We, as nuns, are simply living our karma within the convent.

And so, on that particular morning, I come walking down the isle again. Only on this day, I have no wedding garment on, I have a funeral shroud made of dark red velvet which falls to the floor. As I walk down that isle I know what I am to do. The casket is all prepared by the already cloistered nuns and it is sitting right out front. I knew that I would walk to the casket and climb within, lay my body down, and I would spend nine hours in there. Two little nuns would come forth and cover me completely with a heavy black cloth we call a "heavy drape", which is so incensed that ones feels certain smothering to death. I would have to stay there for the full nine hours or longer. I knew that when I would come out of that casket, I would never leave the convent--ever again. I knew I would never see my mother and father again--I would never go home again. I would always live totally behind convent doors and when I would die, my body would be buried there. They had told me that, so I knew it before the actual ceremony--but I had no way to comprehend a thing of such magnitude.

The worst and most terrible price to pay, however, was to open your eyes and realize that the convents are not religious orders as we were taught and we were trained. It is a total disappointment to a young girl who has given her life to God and willing to give up everything and sacrifice so much. I can as­sure you that it was a heartbreaking and terrifying disappointment.

The nuns asked me what I thought of while in that casket. I spilled every tear in my body. I remembered every lovely thing my mother had done for me; I remembered her voice and the gathering around the table. I remembered the times when she would play with us and remembered the things she had said to me--even to what a marvelous cook she was. I remembered everything as a little girl growing up in my parent's home. I remembered everything as I laid in that casket--knowing I would never again hear her voice or see her face. I knew I would never sit to her table again or enjoy her presence or her food.

I knew all those things so for some four hours I simply spilled all the tears in my body, because it was so hard and I knew I would get homesick but I was giving it all for what I thought was the love of God. I couldn't know any better. Those were nine horribly long, long hours. Then I got a hold on myself and began to speak to myself, "Now Charlotte, you will make the very best Carmelite nun, it will be the best thing you have ever done and you will give your best and you are willing to give everything you have."

I had given the best that I had up to this point and I would now be even better for I knew I must be the best that I could be. The Mother Superior and Priests knew all about it also. Now, I realized that after I would walk out of that casket, I would go back into the Mother Superior's room. I had never been allowed within that particular room so I had no idea what was inside.

When I walked in the room the Mother Superior requires I sit down in a high backed, hard bottomed chair. Then I would immediately take three vows--of poverty, chastity and obedience. As I took those vows, she opened a little place on my earlobe and removed a portion of blood, because every vow must be signed in my own blood. After that, I would take the vow of poverty. Now, when I signed that vow I would henceforth be willing to live in crucial poverty for the balance of my life. The next vow is of chastity. You know, this vow represents my marriage to Jesus Christ and I would always remain a virgin and I would never marry another in this world. After the Bishop married me to Christ he had placed a ring on my finger and that meant I was sealed to Christ. I accepted it because I knew no better. And now, here I was again, vowing to always remain a virgin because I am the bride of Christ.

Please listen carefully for these things are so important to the things that I shall later share. The last vow was of obedience. I already felt I knew what obedience meant for I was already living in a convent and absolute obedience is demanded. You don't escape with any show of disobedience; not for even a moment. You don't get away with disobedience and you are made to realize what obedience is and it is demanded and you know it. The sooner you learn it the wiser you become in stemming the consequences of disobedience.

WHAT DO THESE VOWS MEAN?

It means more than you folks will ever know because most people that I know anything about, know very little about obedience. You may know something, but I promise you that you know nothing compared to that which a little nun knows about it. Unless you have lived in a convent, you have no idea.

When I signed that particular vow in my own blood, it did something to me because after I signed those vows it meant I had signed away everything I had; my human rights were gone and I had become a mechanical human being. I can't sit until told to do so, I can't rise until they tell me to, I can't lie down un­til they tell me to and neither do I dare get up. I cannot eat until they tell me to, what I see--I don't see, what I feel--I don't feel; I have become a mechani­cal human being. But you are not aware of it until you have signed all these vows. Then you realize too late that there you are, a mechanical human being and you belong to Rome--totally to Rome.

AFTER THE VOWS--FORGOTTEN WOMEN

Immediately after I have taken those vows, then the Mother Superior is going to take away my name and give me the name of a patron Saint. And she teaches me to believe that whatever happens to me in the convent, I can take to that patron saint and she will intercede and get my prayers to God for I am not holy enough to stand in the presence of God. It is no wonder that the dear little nuns never get close to God for we were always taught that we would never be holy enough to stand in His presence. We always would have to go through someone else in order to get our prayers to God. We believe it because we don't know any better.

Now, all identification of who "Charlotte" was is put away. It would be taken away and if anyone should come to the convent and call for me in my family name, they would be told that there is no such person. I no longer exist!

Next, the Mother Superior is going to cut every bit of hair off my head. When she cuts it with the scissors she follows with the clippers. There is nothing left--not one strand of hair left on my head. Of course, if you could be a nun, you could understand that with the heavy head-gear we must wear that it would he so cumbersome to take care of it, that we don't have any way to take care of hair in the convent. There are no combs in the convent and you can see how hard it would be to tend a head of hair. It is certainly not necessary to have a comb after they finish with your haircut.

Alright, this is my "black veil" and these are my vows. I am there and I am going to stay there.

Up until this point I received a letter once a month from my family. I could also write a letter to my family. Even though I now realize that most of my writing would be marked out, because letters received from my family there was so much blacked out until there was no sense left to the letter. Oh, I would weep over those black marks while I wondered what my mother was saying to me. Well, I was informed that I would never know what they wanted to say to me and so it was. They break your heart over and over and the lone­liness is complete. You have no friends in the convent.

I can assure you there are no friends. Even though there were 180 girls in my particular wing, not one was my friend and neither was I a friend to them. You are allowed no friends in the convent--we are all policemen and detec­tives just watching one another and compelled to tell on each other. The little nun who would find something to tell on another nun stands in good favor with the Mother Superior. Then that Mother teaches that nun to believe that when she stands in good favor with the Mother Superior, she is standing in good favor with God. Of course that little nun desires that so she will tell a lot of things which are not even truth.

SOLD MY SOUL

After all of this has so far transpired, everything I have is gone---I HAVE SOLD MY SOUL FOR A MASS OF THEOLOGICAL POTTAGE. Not only are we destroyed in our bodies but many of us in our minds as well. Many of us, if we die in the convent, will have lost our souls. It is a serious and pitiful thing and I covet your prayers for all those little helpless nuns behind cloistered convent doors.

They will never know the gospel. They will never know Christ---they will only know evil in its most terrifying and hopeless form. They will never feel the reflection of God and the Christos--they will only know death and mechanical and tortured existence.

AFTER THE VOWS, THE NEXT - -

After the vows have transpired, the Mother Superior sends me into another room. When I walk into that room I see something I have never seen before. I see a Roman Catholic Priest dressed in a Holy Habit. He walks over to me and locks his arm into my arm which had never been done in any of my previ­ous experience in the convent. I had never had a priest insult me in any man­ner; I had never had one even be unkind to me in the first part of my convent experience.

But here he is now, and of course I didn't understand what it was all about and I didn't know what in the world the man expected of me. I pulled from him because I felt highly insulted and said "shame on you". It made him very an­gry. The Mother Superior must have heard my voice for she immediately came to the room. She said, "After you've been in the convent a little while, you won't feel this way. The rest of us felt this way in the beginning but you know, the priest's body is sanctified and therefore it is not a sin to give our bodies unto the priest." In other words, they teach every little nun this, "As the holy ghost placed the germ in Mary's womb and Jesus Christ was born, so the priest is the Holy Ghost and therefore it is no sin for you to bear his chil­dren."

Let me assure you, that is what they come to the convent for--there is no other purpose in all of this world for a priest to come to the convent except to rob those precious little girls of their virtue. I'll be telling you later in this testi­mony just what they really do.

At this point every bridge has been burned out from under me--there is no way back, I can't get out of the convent even though I pled; oh how I pled with that priest. I cried for my father--I wanted to go home. I told him I wanted to go no farther. He laughed in my face and, believe me, that is when you stand alone--there is none to whom to turn. You are caught in the circumstance for there is no way in which to get out of the convent.

I assure you, I stayed in the convent until God made a way for me to come out.

After all these things, now I am expected to go into the chamber with the priest. Did I go? No--I had not entered the convent to be a bad woman. I wouldn't have suffered as I had suffered to be a bad woman--I was there to be pure and Godly. I had entered the convent to give my heart, life and soul to God and I had no other purpose in being there. But you will soon learn why it is easier to do that which is expected than to disobey. Of course I refused to go into the private chamber with him, and would have fought until I spilled my last drop of blood. Well, I didn't go with him but on the next morning I knew that I would have to do penance.

A LITTLE PENANCE

When the Mother Superior said, the next morning, that I would need to do penance--I would be initiated as a Carmelite nun. I remember that when she walked me down into that particular place of penance, it was a dark room which was dark and cold. As we walked toward the front of the room I could see the little candles burning. Anywhere in the convent you will find the seven candles burning. As I came closer I saw the candles but I couldn't see any­thing else and of course I wondered what she was going to do to me. I felt ter­ror rise in my heart for it is one thing you cannot completely get rid of.

As I came a little closer I could see something lying there on a board. When I came very close I could see it was a little nun lying there on what I call "a cooling board". The board was the same length as the girl. As I looked closely and watched the candle light flicker on her face, I realized the child was dead.

Questions rushed into my brain; how did she die, why is she here, how long has she been here--why am I here? But I had signed away every human right so I am not allowed to utter even one word. So, I just stood staring. Then the Mother Superior said, "You stand vigil over this dead body for one hour and then another little nun will come to relieve you." So every few minutes during that hour I would walk over to the little body and sprinkle it with holy water and say "Peace be unto you."

I did exactly what they told me to do even though it was a terrible feeling. But I was not afraid of the dead people for I had already learned it was the live people we had to be most cautious of. I wasn't afraid of that little dead nun but oh, my heart ached for her.

After the little bell rang I realized my hour was up. Then as I am waiting for my signal to be relieved--we must always walk on our toes in silence--I wait. I waited silently and heard nothing but I was quite unnerved being there with the little dead nun--so when the relieving nun laid her hand on my shoulder, I let out a scream in total terror. I didn't mean to do it; I didn't break the rule of silence on purpose but I was scared.

Immediately I had to come before the Mother Superior and that was the first time I was to learn and know about a dungeon. I had no idea there were dun­geons in the convent. Well, she put me in a place of total darkness, dirty and floorless, and left me there in the total darkness for three days and three nights, without food or water. I assure you, I didn't scream any more. I really tried to never again break the rules of screaming because I now knew there was a dungeon and they will promptly put you in it. Let me tell you it is not a nice place to be.

MASTERPIECE OF SATAN

Before I go further, let me tell you that this potpourri is a masterpiece of Sa­tan--A MASTERPIECE OF SATAN, with his lying wonders and his tradi­tions and his deceptions--it is a terrible thing when you know about it.

After the three days in the dungeon the Mother Superior came to me and in­formed me that I must do penance. She took me down into another room underground. As I entered the room I could see a piece of wood there, and as I got closer I could see that it was a cross. It was made of heavy timbers, per­haps eight to ten feet high. It was sitting on an incline and was very heavy. She had me walk to the base of the cross and she had me strip off my clothes and then had me drape my body over the foot of the cross. She pulled my hands underneath and bound them to my feet. This is where I would be spilling my blood but she had not told me how and neither could I ask just how I would spill it.

There were two little nuns who came with her and she gave them a flagella­tion whip which is a bamboo type pole with six straps on its end and on the end of each strip was a cross piece of sharp metal. Each nun was given a whip and they stood on either side of the cross. At the same time, those girls began whipping my body. When the metal hit my body it would, of course, slash my skin. It would cut into the flesh and I spilled blood, running down to the floor. Well, that was my spilling of blood, and being human it wounded, it hurt--it was very painful but you dare not cry out. After the whipping is over, my body was not bathed but rather my clothing was put back upon my body and I have to go the rest of the day with the clothing sticking into the wounds.

When the night comes and I stand in front of my cell bed--we have to stand with our backs to each other to undress--I had to rip the cloth from my wounds and oh, it was terrible. I couldn't sleep at all that night; I was not a bit sleepy because I couldn't get all of my clothing off for they were dried into the wounds. The cloth remained dried into the wounds for several days. Neither could I eat the following morning of that awful event.

In the mornings we got a cup of black coffee in a tin cup and we could have no milk or sugar of any kind. We were also given one slice of bread made by the nuns of the cloister--it weighs exactly four ounces. That is all that is given for breakfast. Then in the evening there is a small bowl of soup made with only vegetables with no seasoning what-so-ever, with a half slice of bread. Three times a week I receive a half glass of skimmed milk. This was my food three hundred sixty five days in the year.

Of course I began to lose weight very rapidly because there was not enough food to eat. There was never a night that I went to bed without a hungry stomach. Sometimes the hunger pangs would be so severe I could not sleep. The pain would be gnawing and one could hardly stand it. You know, though, that you are still only going to get that one tiny slice of bread in the morning. Of course it couldn't begin to fill up the stomach and, of course, you have to work very hard all day.

I covet your prayers for those little nuns because you cannot imagine the mis­ery. You will go to bed with a full stomach tonight but those little girls are starving, and they are lonely, wounded, heartsick and homesick. They are in total discouragement and worst of all, they have NO hope. No hope what-so-­ever. You and I can look forward to the day when we can see Jesus--they have no hope, they believe they will never see Jesus. Please do not forget to pray for them.

ANOTHER INITIATION

A few days later the Mother Superior is taking me to another place for an­other initiation. When I go into the penance chamber this morning, we come into another area down there and the distance was quite a long ways to walk. It was a tunnel we pass through and then we come out into a room. When I walk a good distance into the room I see the candles burning and in addition I see a rope hanging down from the ceiling and I am so scared. I don't know what the ropes are for and I silently cry out in wondering what she is going to do. As you do the penances you begin to have a lot of fear in your heart. I can't say anything but I walk on and realize there are two ropes hanging down. She tells me to move over to the wall and stand sideways against the wall un­derneath the ropes. Then she tells me to put up both of my thumbs, and I did so. She pulled one rope down and on it was a metal band which she fastens around the joint of my thumb and then the other. Now I am standing facing the wall, and she comes over by me to a crank on the wall and she begins winding. I feel myself moving and she is taking me right up into the air. She winds until my toes are just touching the floor and there she fastens it.

All of the weight of my body is now on my thumbs and on the tips of my toes. Not a word is spoken--no one utters a word. She walks out of that room and locks the door. If you can imagine what it means to hear a key lock in a door and know that I am strung up here helpless, you can't imagine---unless you are a nun. When she walked out of that room I couldn't know how long I would stay there.

They left me there wondering if "this was it"? Would I simply die like this? They left me alone without food or water. Within a few hours my muscles be­gan to scream out with the pain, for I was, after all, a human being. I was suf­fering unbearably and that woman left me to hang and nobody came near. It does no good to cry. You can spill every tear in your body but nobody will hear--there is no one there to hear. I just hung there, finally being convinced I was to die there. I began to feel the swelling and then I don't know how much time passed. Finally the door opened one morning and the nun had some­thing for me to eat and water in a pan with potatoes in it. The potatoes were not fit to eat.

There was a shelf on the wall facing me and it can be adjusted to the height of a nun. Now remember, I am not against the wall--I am several inches away from the wall. She raises the shelf to the height of my mouth and puts the food and water on the shelf in front of me. She says, "There is your food." and walks out.

She didn't let my hands down--how can I get the food? But you learn, for you are so hungry but worse, you are so thirsty you feel as if you are going mad. To get it, I discovered that if I raise one hand a bit higher the other would come down just a bit and then over and over bit by bit I finally could just reach the dish. I had to lap it like an animal but I got just as much as I could reach. I worked until I got as much of the potato as I could because I was starving--it was awful and I am so pained to remember.

That was the way I was fed for a while. I hung there for nine days and nine nights in that position. The time came when I was so swollen that I could ac­tually see the puffing as it protruded. I thought my eyes would come out of my head. I could feel that my arms, etc., were two to three times normal size and I was that way all over my body. I was in real suffering as it was like my entire body was like a "boil".

On the ninth day she comes in and releases the bonds and lets me down on the floor. I fall but I cannot walk. I didn't walk for I don't know how long. Two little nuns carry me out, one lifts my feet and the other my shoulder. They carry me to the infirmary and lay me on a slab of wood and there they cut the clothing from my body. Nobody but God will ever know how awful; I am covered with vermin and filth--my own human filth.

In that room are no facilities but right behind me is a stool with a pail and they have running water through it--but the lid is down and on the lid are sharp nails driven through the lid. If I would fall on that I would suffer terribly. If the rope would break I would have not survived and the suffering would be unbearable.

This, dear friends, is the life of a little nun behind cloistered doors. This is af­ter they have already received the disillusionment--this is the life that we will live and these are the things that we will be forced to do.

I remember, as I lived on in that place, let me tell you that in the mornings we get out of our beds before 4:30 in the mornings. The Mother Superior taps a bell and that gives five minutes to dress. I tell you surely, you get that clothing on in five minutes--not five and a half. I failed once and was severely pun­ished--I never failed again in all of the years in the convent.

When we finish dressing, we start marching and we march and march.

EVEN BEFORE THE BLACK VEIL

In the beginning days in the convent the lies were thrust forth. As an example, let us say a mother comes to visit and brings the child a bit of candy.

The mother would ask to speak to the Mother Superior and request to see the daughter. The child will then be brought to the other side of a wall where the mother cannot see her. But the mother will speak to her and ask if she is happy to be here. That little nun will lie and say to her mother that she is very happy. Well, the Mother Superior would be standing right there and the child would have no alternative. God alone knows what the Mother Superior would do to the little nun if she failed to lie. Then as a mother will, she will ask if the child has plenty to eat and the little nun will lie again and tell her "Oh, yes, we have plenty to eat."

That mother will then go home and be happy and share the news and a meal with the rest of the family. But if she could look within and see our table and see what her little girl eats--if she could just look in at her little girl after three or four years, she would see that her eyes are sunken completely into her head and her little body is wasted away. I can promise you that mother would never be able to eat another meal. If a parent could see a child after she has been in a convent for a period of time--they would never rest again.

Of course these things are all hidden, completely under-cover and the chil­dren have no choice--we are given what we shall have and we take it or die.

Dharma, enough for this sitting. Let us take respite. Thank you, chela, for your willing hands. I give you peace.

I AM SANANDA and I am ever with you. Amen.