CHAPTER 15
MAY 23, 1991
WHY PERSONAL INTEGRITY REQUIRES PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY
Greetings, my brethren. I AM Sananda. I come in the service of God/Aton of Light. Greetings, precious Druthea. Let us begin, please.
This day I will discuss the meaning of INTEGRITY and how it relates to and is integrated with responsibility. Let us first define, integrity: "1. Uprightness of character; honesty. 2. The condition or quality of being unimpaired or sound. 3. The state of being complete or undivided."
Now we will define, responsible: "1. Answerable legally or morally for the discharge of a duty, trust, or debt. 2. Having capacity lo distinguish between right and wrong. 3. Involving accountability or obligation. Responsibility: 1. State of being responsible or accountable: also responsibleness. 2. That for which one is answerable; a duty or trust."
Integrity and responsibility arc most delicately intertwined. To achieve utmost spiritual integrity, one must fully recognize and understand his responsibilities; first to God/Aton/Creator Within and also to the rest of the lifeforce expression within The Creation. In order to become a spiritually conscious co-creator with God/Aton, one must become ONE with living the Cosmic Laws of God/Creation. One must realize his accountability to the Great Spirit within him. He must become impeccable (free from^ error, fault, or flaw) regarding adherence to Cosmic Law. And to gain cosmic power, he must become spiritually complete,' unimpaired and sound of character, which is the stale of being called integrity.
Now in order lo become impeccable in your integrity, one must BE responsible by listening to Spirit within about "right" and "wrong"—or as 1 prefer lo call il balanced or unbalanced—^ thinking and behavior. Each of you have the KNOWLEDGE within with which lo be responsible in every thought, word and deed. You need only LISTEN carefully and ask God/Aton within to help you recognize your error, instantly when you make one. It may not always be pleasant to become instantly accountable for your misdeed or misthought, but if you pay careful attention, you will find that you will seldom if ever repeat the same error. You will find that the careful attention to and recognition of your inner guidance, instantly, is well worth the temporary inconvenience or discomfort lo your "altered" ego.
So by requesting God/Aton within lo show you the error, immediately, He will also show you the balanced thought action or deed with which to reclaim your impeccability of spirit. Why can it be seemingly so easy to recognize errors? Because, chelas, you ones have made essentially THE SAME errors over and over again. Lifetime after lifetime now you have chosen lo be irresponsible and remain spiritually ignorant. You already KNOW and can distinguish between that which is balanced and unbalanced thought and behavior; you simply have forgotten you KNOW.
When you separated yourself from the Great Spirit within you, which fully contained your being as far as perfect guidance and knowledge, you became spiritually powerless. When you worshipped in separateness from THE ONE and therefore sought OUTSIDE your being for guidance, you DENIED the Spirit within YOU its full creative potential. And because you felt no longer responsible for that which you manifested, you became your own slaves to the physical illusion. By your self-denial you created leaders over you who would support your "belief" in separation from Creator, and thus you developed tremendous attachment to physical matter. This accounts for the same developed attachment to EGO separate illusion.
To achieve Spiritual integrity you are required lo BE responsible and accountable for the effects of your thoughts, words and deeds. In order to be responsible, you must UNDERSTAND and adhere lo The Cosmic Laws of Balance. You must seek ONENESS and sec UNITY with all, NOT separation, inferiority or superiority lo anyone or anything. You must become impeccable in your intent to serve God and The Creation. You must recognize only ONE WILL, the will of THE ONE, Creator/Creation. Then you will gain the Spiritual Integrity of CHRIST perfection and with that your Power within will become Magnificent.
Remember when I Sananda, walked as man upon your place I told you, `These things I do, YOU will do GREATER". So be it and il is coming lo pass, chelas.
I would like to requotc something for you to ponder from our beloved St. Germain: "Your personal power is in direct proportion to the integrity of your soul". This one sentence says it all, chelas. Ponder these things most carefully that you hear Spirit to Spirit and not Spirit to ego illusion. This "time", my brethren, is the "hour" of the dawning of YOUR spiritual awakening. How the Angels of Glory in Heaven REJOICE; for earth human is preparing for the celebration of ONENESS and BROTHERHOOD within GOD'S HOLY Kingdom of LIGHT!
I love you greatly, my precious chelas! I am most honored to serve My Ealhcr and therefore you, my brethren. I AM Sananda, One with God. Thank you my precious sister, Drulhca. You are most blessed in Our Father's Kingdom. Be at Peace as is the spring time flowering of this time. Enjoy the radiance of Our Father's Creation before you. Salu.
CHAPTER 16
JUNE 23, 1991
CHANGE BEGINS WITHIN YOU
Greetings precious Druthea. We are Sananda, Lord Michael and St. Germain. We are pleased to have you back with us lo allow "written" sharing of knowledge with our brethren. We come in service to Holy God of Light and The Creation. Let us begin.
It seems that through the sensing compression of your physical manifested illusion lhat all EFFECTS which you are now witnessing upon your plane exist OUTSIDE of your beings. This, precious brothers, is one very important area where you earth humans have errored in perception of understanding. YOU arc the CAUSE. Your awareness of the actual EFFECTS of your DESIRES has simply been limited to SENSING perception of motion which you have believed existed "out there" somewhere beyond your control and/or responsibility.
DESIRE
Not one of you would be reading The Phoenix Journals had you not had the DESIRE to know Truth. The Spirit of ONE within you is calling you to awaken to your true potential of SERVICE to GOD. If you have been drawn to these JOURNALS, it is not by "accident" chelas. YOU have answered the call within you. YOU have a most cherished purpose to serve in the assistance of BIRTH of God awareness and knowledge upon your Earth plane. What may that be? Many of you still are asking. YOU only need to DESIRE to know and serve God, our Creator within Creation, and since YOU are his temple, WITHIN you, will your wisdom, knowledge and purpose be revealed. Remember, there is NO separation. You ones have simply forgotten your Divine Spiritual Heritage, YOUR ONENESS WITH ALL!
It will also be your DESIRE that will propel you toward your oneness and service lo God. Your Free-will must be returned, surrendered, released, however you want to think of il, TO GOD. There is only ONE choice ultimately, and that is GOD'S WILL WILL BE DONE! Many of you are now facing the choice of aligning your thoughts, words and behaviors with GOD balance or remaining in the "illusion" of ego-separate adversarial games. Ultimately it will be the impeccability of your DESIRE, which is defined as "spiritual maturity" which will propel your being to SERVE the Light, Love and Knowledge which is God.
THE ADVERSARY CHALLENGES YOUR SPIRITUAL
INTEGRITY
There is a certain comfort which will develop within you ones as you begin lo see the "lessons" which confront you as simply challenges which offer you the chance to become spiritually mature.
Most everything that you will learn on this plane especially, will come from your relationships with other human beings. When many ones speak of "mirrors", meaning that other humans are your mirrors, there is much misperception in the meaning of that statement. Il is quite true that every human is related to YOU. You are ONE. So in that sense when you look into the eyes of another, you are seeing yourself in oneness, simply as a fragment of that oneness.
The problem comes when you ones casually call everyone mirrors and ihus you tolerate, condone or allow BEHAVIOR towards you because somehow you deserve it because they are mirroring YOU. That is the big BS word! Remember, we spoke of lessons as challenges. Often, YOUR challenge is HOW you will choose lo RESPOND to the behavior and words of another.
If, for example, THEY profess unhappiness with their relationship with you, and somehow it is implied, directly or indirectly, that YOU must change lo make it better for THEM, what are they really saying to you? How will you respond? Do you immediately feel guilty of error?
Think about this, chelas. WHO is unhappy? WHO must change to bring balance? YOU, who feels unhappy must lake responsibility for your own dissatisfaction. Bui how do you do so without casting outward blame? And how can you think such irresponsible thoughts as "You are my mirror, so I can DUMP my feelings of unhappiness/ unworthiness upon you?" This thinking behavior, chelas, is punishment. You who cast blame are seeking a place where your self-punishment will be allowed by another. The lesson to the receiver of blame may simply be to NOT ALLOW blame, guilt, etc., to affect him/her. It may also be a time of improving communication between you. Even if that be to direct the responsibility for positive change to the one who is unhappy. As the receiver, you may offer your assistance, or you may choose to withdraw until such time as attitude has adjusted and even apologies given.
Remember this, chelas, in EVERY circumstance set before you, which YOU set before self, YOU CHOOSE how you will respond. If you feel that you are treated unfairly, then you must learn to communicate with intent to UNDERSTAND the intent of the other. If you choose to define yourself as "sensitive", fine. Does that mean you must wear your emotions upon thy sleeve, waiting to become victim? If you set yourself up lo be emotionally fragile and sensitive, you will develop a victimhood circumstance EVERY lime.
Victimhood is also self-punishment. It is a condition developed from extreme insecurity and deep feelings of unworthiness. This is why there is the perception that many ones who are in "victim" condition feel, and that is that they are somehow treated differently. Well, in a sense they are.
For example, one who is relatively secure and spiritually mature will often simply become irritated with one who is highly insecure because he/she simply does not relate with the condition.
He/she will simply avoid confrontation with the condition or feeling of being "sucked" into the emotional trauma/drama which a "victim" often develops by his/her deep-seated and unresolved insecurity.
The victim always seeks ways lo be "hurt", usually by others within their circle of experience. Until the victim begins to sec HIS/HER CAUSE, which is insecurity and unworthiness, he/she will remain trapped in a very lonely cycle of self-punishment. The change must begin BY HIS/HER DESIRE to serve GOD of LIGHT. When one makes his/her choice lo serve ONLY THE WILL OF OUR FATHER, then self-punishment and unworthiness IS IMPOSSIBLE!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND, CHELAS?
Remember when you perceive you arc a helpless "victim" of all and everything outside of you, then you serve the adversary who encourages the illusion of punishment and unworthiness of self. You will remain "victim" to self as long as you continue to live in FEAR. Naturally, others will cither support and sympathize with your feelings of helpless "victimhood" or they will NOT support your behavior and avoid you...until such time as self-responsibility is demonstrated and accepted.
FEAR IS THE POISON APPLE OF THE VICTIM
At the very root of the emotional victim's severe feelings of unworthiness is FEAR. The illusion of separation from God is very strong. The connection of God knowledge is severed...in illusion of course. What do "victims" fear the most? REJECTION OF SELF BY GOD. This illusion of possibility of rejection by God is sustained by tremendous guilt carried by the "victim" for errors perceived or real committed against God. Every time the victim perceives REJECTION by another human, he/she is reminded of his/her fear of rejection by GOD. This cycle of unbalanced self-punishment continues until the "victim" slops seeking love and acceptance outside of himself/herself, but instead goes within to ask forgiveness and release of unworthiness and guilt. When you petition GOD to show you HIS way...and your intent to heal is pure through desire to serve, HE will show you the way home. He will wrap you in his wings of LOVE, of" LIGHT and of KNOWLEDGE that NO rejection is possible except by misalignment of "altered" ego self. THE KNOWLEDGE OF TRUTH COMPLETELY UNDERSTOOD AND ACCEPTED WITHIN WILL RELEASE THE VICTIM, AND THE FEAR WILL DISSOLVE AND NO LONGER RENDER HIM/HER HELPLESS!
Remember, as Commander Hatonn so succinctly said, "KNOWLEDGE ALLEVIATES FEAR". Hold it close lo you, chelas. So Be it.
HOW DO YOU MOVE THROUGH AND BEYOND
YOUR FEAR?
To dissolve the fear which exists only as an illusion of physical survival, you must DESIRE Truth and knowledge in order lo serve the will of GOD. Ask yourself, "What is my feeling of fear showing me?" Is it a warning call? "WAKE UP, WAKE-UP, THE TIME OF GLORY OF YOUR SERVICE IS AT HAND!" Fear is felt when you feel threatened in some way. For example, when Commander Hatonn writes of the socio-economic and political evils perpetrated upon you and George Green speaks of his experiences of corruption in the highest offices of your government, are you afraid? WHY? Because you did not know or because YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW?
To become aware of the truth about the unbalance developed upon your plane requires change and often you ones are simply afraid to change your perceived comfortable life-styles because you perceive PHYSICAL inconvenience or even suffering IF you were to LOSE those precious assets of which you believe you OWN. You OWN NOTHING save your immortal soul and even your immortal soul belongs to God/Aton THE ONE!
Does this mean you must not have? OF COURSE NOT! Remember GOD IS ABUNDANCE! You will simply let ALL go of physical manifestation when you leave this plane. So it does become wise lo gain knowledge of Truth that YOUR FEAR OF LOSS OF BODY PHYSICAL AND/OR PHYSICAL ASSETS IS PROPERLY ALLEVIATED, DOES IT NOT?
When you align your free-will choice into service unto God/Aton of Light, Love and Knowledge, YOU will have ALL abundance you need to sustain in His Service ALWAYS!
With that thought, precious chelas, we will close this document You ones who seek, who desire to KNOW, who seek lo gain knowledge or Truth, who desire lo SERVE ARE MOST BLESSED OF OUR FATHER. WE HONOR YOU ALL AND WE ARE SO GRATEFUL TO SERVE YOU OF OUR BROTHERS OF GOD AND THE CREATION. Thank you little dove of light, Drulhea, We LOVE you greatly and God is most pleased with your service, chela. Hold it closely. We arc Sananda, Lord Michael and St. Germain. May God's Light shine brightly upon and within you, our brethren. Walk gently and in Peace with one another. Salu.