PJ#047, PRE-FLIGHT INSTRUCTIONS FOR THE PHOENIX

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CHAPTER 9
APRIL 30, 1991
ALL DAYS ARE HOLY THEREFORE. MAKE EVERYDAY AN "EARTH" DAY

Greetings Druthea. I AM Sananda. I come in the service of Holy God/Aton and The Creation. Thank you for your atten­tion.
Sometime during your middle 1960's, there was started some­thing you ones called EARTH DAY. One day was chosen that ones would honor Mother Earth and awareness was encouraged about the destructive actions of humans toward Earth, such as the use of fossil fuels which contributed to various forms of pollution, disposal of garbage and polluting industries. This one, Druthea, remembers that in her school it was organized that ones who so chose, would not take the busses but instead would walk to school to show their support of Mother Earth. This one lived some ten miles from her school but she and sev­eral others were most anxious to help Mother Earth by walking together. It was a small seed planted toward encouraging awareness and responsibility of self-centered human toward the rest of this Creation in which also sustains physical human life.

Now you have many so called "green movements" which claim concern about the planet. Some of them are quite militant, some concern themselves with education. Most all arc controlled by the Puppet Master, the Anti-Christ, in which behind the facade of goodness and concern for Mother, the adversary weaves his destructive web. You see, the adversary USES the goodness and concern which exists within the ones who become involved in these organized structures because they truly wish to HELP and take responsibility. Most do not know that they arc used to bring more support to the adversary that he may gain ever more control of you ones. This Commander Hatonn has recently ex­plained to you ones that you discern your enemy against life which exists now most blatantly within most all government and other organized structure:.- , of your culture.,. The "green move­ments" are NO exception.

So now what can you do? The first thing to remember is that EVERY DAY is HOLY in God's Kingdom, therefore make EVERY day one in which you HONOR and BLESS and express your gratitude to Mother Earth for sustaining your physical life and, also, you must consider her needs. Just as EVERY DAY you HONOR and Bless and express gratitude to GOD/ATON for breathing the spirit of LIFE within you that you may give THE ONE more opportunities for WONDROUS Creative Un­foldment and JOY in LIFE. How do you assess the "needs" of Mother? Realize first that healing of Mother Earth BEGINS with the healing OF YOU. Each ONE of you who chooses ser­vice lo God's Will must release all illusions that bring disease upon your beings and separation from your source. You cannot heal for another; you can assist the healing of another by taking his hand in brotherhood and extending the love and gentleness of the Father/Mother God within you. Most who now suffer in the body physical are simply so very STARVED for love and they know not that the power to change and heal exists within them. The most difficult action for all of you lo take is one of ac­knowledging your fears and facing the mirror of truth within you. You will find that as you forgive and release your "negative" illusions of self that you will be unable to support "negative" behaviors of self-deception in others. This does not mean that you must walk about in self-righteous indignation and FORCE another lo see himself the way YOU perceive is truth, even if it may be truthful perception. Realize that what you wit­ness in the behavior of another you have been...or still are. So it is also true that that which you admire most within another exists, perhaps yet unblossomed, within yourself. So what must you do to not support the adversary in yourself and in another? Ask GOD lo show you that which you need to know for under­standing. Ask God how you must "handle" every circumstance which conies before you. Then you must be WILLING to TRUST HIS WILL and LISTEN carefully lo that which He tells you.

Fur example, many of you ones scream within for attention and acknowledgement from your human brothers who exist within or even beyond your circle of experience. The inner child most often suffers from rejection of self and unworthiness in one who constantly seeks approval outside of God within him/her. How do YOU respond to one who walks about in a dither in per­ceived self-hurt and rejection? Do you ignore this one? Do you become irritated or angry with this one? Or do you see YOUR­SELF in this one and become afraid? We have observed all of these as well as similar responses. Now "ignoring" and be­coming angry with the troubled one are often simple responses of FEAR and DENIAL OF SAME, although ignoring the trou­bled one may simply be preoccupation at the time of observation of behavior and desire to ponder the situation more fully at a more convenient "time" frame.

Now another choice of response (the choice we would recom­mend in most cases) would be to (as soon as is possible within the circumstance) gently confront this one privately about your observation of the behavior exhibited and offer lo listen to that which is troubling this one. In other words, LOVE that little hurt CHILD that it feels safe and comforted. Now if the one chooses to DENY his/her feelings and not trust you to share, then know that that one is most fearful and attached thereof to his fear and feelings of vulnerability, perhaps from past "perceived" betrayal of trust, by another. You can do no more than offer your hand of caring friendship and understanding in honor and integrity. You cannot force one to release of his fear and share his feelings.

Then, in either case, you must, gently but firmly, let that one know that which you have observed about their behavior, that they may have the opportunity to hear the truth within their own troubled being...and perhaps begin to face self and release the denial they hold tightly onto.

If ones continue to use their denial as a form of emotional ma­nipulation and even emotional tyranny of blame, punishment and "poor me" mentality, then they will either sabotage themselves so that you ask them out of your presence until they come to lenns with that which they do, or they will leave upon their own accord if continually confronted with the truth about their "self-centered, manipulative and blame-oriented" behavior and still find themselves unwilling to confront and release the behavior.

The same sort of analogy can be made for this Earth transition which is now occurring. All human souls will ultimately make a choice about whether or not they arc willing to move with grace and integrity toward ONENESS with God. Those fragments of the ONE who choose to play the self-deceptive games of the adversary and also break the Cosmic Laws of Balance of God and The Creation will eliminate themselves from "graduation" class lo God's higher realms of experience. Perhaps this helps you understand why we of The Hosts have often stressed the impor­tance of self-confrontation, as well as monitoring thoughts, words and deeds that you learn lo recognize those thoughts and behaviors that hinder or even obstruct your path to God, so that you can release them. At the same time, you ones can truly as­sist one another when you act with integrity and pure intent lo actually ASSIST understanding by communicating honestly with a "perceived" troubled one and not instead condemn this one for reasons often involving "altered" ego self-righteous superiority. As you practice with each new circumstance your positive communication skills, you will find yourselves lifted within a whole "new" level of human/spiritual compassion and under­standing which will reward you with a sense of INNER PEACE and BALANCE which has often eluded you ones in your daily interrelationships with one another.

May The Truth of GOD be accepted by YOU of His Fragments that you find the doors of inspiring possibilities opened easily within you. I give honor to you of my brethren who truly DE­SIRE and thus find fulfillment in serving GOD'S WILL. Your rewards in His service arc limitless and beyond your conscious comprehension. Thank you, precious little sister Druthea, for your service. I AM Sananda, ONE with GOD, in service to the HOLY Divine God/Aton and The Creation. Adonai and Salu. I love you ones greatly and am humbled to be of service to Our Father and to YOU, my brethren. Walk in Peace.

CHAPTER 10

MAY 2, 199J
FRIENDSHIP AND THE PATH TO ONENESS

Greetings, precious Druthea. I AM Sananda. I come in the service of Holy GOD/Aton of LIGHT and to you, my brethren.

Often ones, including your Hosts of God speak about the con­cept of "friendship" . For many of you friendship brings lo mind various meanings and experiences. This term often holds spe­cial meaning which may be very different with each of you, considering your experience of understanding relating to this la­bel.

First let us define the term friend as il is given within your own dictionary: "1. A favored companion; intimate. 2. A valued associate or acquaintance. 3. One with whom one is united in some purpose, cause, etc. 4. A patron or supporter." You can see that by your own definition friendship is defined loosely lo mean casual and informal acquaintance or supporter who you share interests or business with. It can also mean a very "intimate" companion which one could imagine as cither a "sweetheart" or marriage partner or even a close personal "platonic" (purely spiritual, or devoid of sensual feeling) com­panion.

Generally, you ones like to classify and comprehend most ev­erything into levels or degrees, including friendship. This is usually reasonable as long as it is done within self lo allow fo­cused understanding about your self-created limitations and as long as it also allows positive focus on what are YOUR priori­ties, and commitments in service to GOD, THE ONE. Ideally, ALL "friends" or "associates" within your circle of experience must contribute to THE SAME priorities and focused intent, most ESPECIALLY when the priorities and focused intent arc CLEARLY INTENDED TO BE IN SERVICE TO GOD, to re­ceive maximum benefit of successful achievement of defined "goals". If even ONE fragment demands an inordinate amount of energy from the WHOLE to achieve self-centered acknowl­edgment and attention from THE WHOLE, then THE WHOLE becomes much lessened in its ability to achieve GOD'S will in balanced harmony. The balance must be made for the integrity of purpose to be allowed the most fulfillment for ALL. We will suggest that ones who continually find themselves unhappy and unfulfilled within a focused unit of beings most often display be­havior of what is termed "emotional" manipulation. This means one who, because of intense "negative" perceptions and emo­tional attachments, often seeks to control or "manage" others for one's own profit or purposes.

For example, by continuously complaining about what is THEIR own problem(s), blaming another or others as the "cause" and then often seeking sympathy from another or others to support their opinion and self-created "victimhood" lo "make it better" for them these "emotional" manipulating ones ultimately seek to cause division of the whole. Verbal communication of true IN­TENT and clarification for these ones is not easy, and often they perceive themselves to be "used" or "victim" of other's abuse or misunderstanding directed against them. So in frustration, be­cause often ones in their circle of experience begin to avoid them so that THEY can accomplish their own work in service, the emotional manipulator will vent his frustrations in indirect, bul often effective ways.

Ones in the circle arc most often confused by the "passive-re­sistant" or even what is perceived as "lack of emotional control" behavior exhibited and strive "to make it better" for the troubled one. This one has then, of course, accomplished what he "needs" and that is often lo be accommodated in his often des­perate need lo "be appreciated" and/or to be "center" of atten­tion and importance, thus diminishing the needs and effectiveness of THE WHOLE. Ultimately, the ones who find overall ful­fillment within their circle, must, to preserve the integrity of fo­cus of the whole in service to GOD, confront the emotional ma­nipulator honestly about the behavior and possibly suggest the departure of this one to "work it out" on his own. Il is seldom easy to, first of all, identify accurately the problem. But once it is accomplished with reasonable understanding, then ones must face the inevitable and that is to decide to instigate the change necessary to bring back balance to the whole. Remember, you can offer your hand of communication and understanding, only YOU cannot successfully spend energy to "make it belter" for another who is unwilling to face SELF in RESPONSIBILITY. These ones most often wish only to DUMP upon another self-created "negative" emotional attachments which THEY still continually feed, that they not face and BE responsible for the CHANGE within themselves. The best and responsible action you can do is be direct about YOUR observations to this one and let them know that you will no longer allow the behavior to in­terfere with the integrity of the work of the the whole.

This is much like your current world situation, and as you can see lack of integrity, denial of truth and "allowing" of unbal­anced and unacceptable behavior happens first within your inner circles of experience and then ultimately this disease has ex­panded to most ALL facets of business and government. You ones have simply allowed the unreasonable and intolerable be­havior of a very few to bring down THE WHOLE. This irre­sponsible "allowing" must STOP, precious ones...do you under­stand?

Now what I wish to concentrate on is the pure and spiritual UNITY of brotherhood of which even the word "platonic" docs not fully define. I will ask and allow you to now envision for a moment what sort of love within friendship I am efforting lo de­scribe to you ones...

Now WHAT DO YOU FEEL? If you were able to tap into that higher concept within you, you may feel quite warm and tingly within, or perhaps a sense of well-being and serenity. Do you feel closer to GOD? Can you begin to feel the kind of LOVE which GOD holds for you...that kind of love which ones often call Unconditional, meaning NOT limited by conditions or ab­solute? I think, perhaps that a "new" term such as, ABSO­LUTE LOVE, is most appropriate because absolute defined means, "1. Free from restriction; unlimited; unconditional. 2. Complete; perfect. 3. Unadulterated; pure. 4. Not related lo anything else; independent. 5. Positive; certain." Yes, indeed, how does learning about ABSOLUTE love set with you ones? Alright then, "Absolute Love", is that sort of LOVE we will en­vision together.

Now in order to become a valued friend lo others, you must first become a valued friend to YOURSELF which GOD within you most wholeheartedly encourages. This you can say is HONOR­ING yourself as GOD with Absolute Love, which then allows you the freedom and the grace lo honor (high regard, respect or esteem) ALL others with Absolute Love. Sound easy? Well like all Cosmic Awareness, Knowledge and Wisdom worth striving for, it means letting go of limited "altered" ego percep­tions to gain understanding. Before you can let these limited perceptions go, though, you must recognize what they arc and that they are actually "limited" perception. Well, chelas, this is what makes the "prize" of spiritual creative self-discovery so precious, that challenge to self of attaining realization of Truth!

Now the next "concept" that you must fully understand to enable you lo attain ABSOLUTE LOVE within your friendships with humanity, is THE LAW OF ONE. Meaning you are related to ALL fragments, seen and unseen of Created of God. RE­LATED, WE ARE ALL RELATED. Fully understanding this concept and truly LIVING it as well is quite humbling, precious ones, quite humbling and quite wondrous indeed.
So then, learning lo fully comprehend, develop and live TRUE cosmic friendship and unity with ALL who choose to accept your hand guarantees you your God-authorized "diploma" of graduation toward ONENESS in the higher realms of God.

Now Drulhca has long pondered a line about "love" which was spoken in a movie entitled, "A Love Story" filmed, I believe sometime in your late I960's. The female character within this "sad" love story told her sweetheart, "Love is never having to say you're sorry". Let us think about this statement, chelas. Does this confuse you? Do you believe you understand its meaning? We will "break" this statement down in definition that perhaps clarity can be accomplished for all. Let us firstgive definition of the term love as given in Funk & Wagnall's Dictionary, "I. A deepdevotion or affection for another person or persons. 2. A strong sexual passion for another person. 3. Sexual passion in genera! or the gratification of it." Isn't it in­teresting that the definition of LOVE you are given begins quite nicely and then erroneously includes SEXUAL activities and feelings. No wonder you ones remain confused about WHAT LOVE IS! Certainly the adversary has "developed" its own definition of that which IT knows little about. And most of you ones have bought this lie going as far as calling sexual inter­course little pet terms such as "making love". "Making" Love? Do you begin to see what a ridiculous statement that is? At the very least this act of physical LUST behavior is "making" AND perpetuating limitation of love expression and in the worst cases itis "making" disease through hateful, manipulative, deviant behavior intent.
Well then if "sexual fulfillment" be the way ones define LOVE within them then certainly ones will find MANY reasons lo say, "I'm Sorry"! Let us continue defining that statement. "I'm Sorry" is what is termed an apology, which means, "A state­ment or explanation expressing regret for some error or of­fense." So then one is making amends for perceived or real er­ror or offense committed against another. First of all, you ones have not quite reached PERFECTION in Love expression and understanding for THIS LESSON is one in which MANY of you are NOW working toward understanding and LIVING dur­ing this time sequence of your development. IF one is able to comprehend and adapt his behavior toward ABSOLUTE LOVE, then certainly his "regrets" and "errors" against self and others become gradually inconsequential.

Does this sound perhaps a bit "idealistic" or ideal, meaning, " I. A concept of perfection. A person or thing taken as a standard of perfection. 3. A high principle; lofty aim. 4. That which exists only as a concept of the mind." And what think you ones perfection is? Well, is not God/Aton our Supreme Creator, THE PERFECT IDEAL? We've said il more than a few limes, EVERYTHING short of GOD is not yet perfection of GOD. Perfection in the making or unfolding perhaps. And yet each fragment exists expressly as a PART of GOD/Aton PERFEC­TION. So in a sense, we as fragments of THE ONE have im­planted within our beings by our very Creator, the Design of Perfection which IS of Our Father/Mother God/Aton. This is the "IDEAL" by which we arc able lo discern and measure our degree of success in our spiritual creative manifestation. So then wc might suggest a change to that phrase to read, "ABSOLUTE Love means never having lo say you're sorry."
Until you ones return to THE ONE in spiritual perfection, you will make errors and feel the need and find circumstances where it is appropriate to apologize, to God, lo yourself, to another so that FORGIVENESS can be allowed to manifest the necessary balanced healing within self. Your God-given CONSCIENCE is your guide within for what is "right" versus "wrong" thoughts and behaviors according to the Cosmic Laws of Balance of God and The Creation. This docs not mean that you ones will not, at times, be able to truly demonstrate ABSOLUTE love within your circumstances and relationships. Simply that you have yet not learned to exist EVERY MOMENT in that space of being of PERFECT, ABSOLUTE LOVE. This is, as I have explained earlier, what MANY of you ones arc now learning about accomplishing. ..living Absolute Love in a much more magnifi­cent degree of success than you have previously accomplished.

May you ones recognize with clarity and understanding the im­portance of balanced friendship with one another for mutual ful­fillment and Joy on your path toward ONENESS. I AM Sananda, One With God. Thank you for your attention, chelas. Thank you, precious Drulhea, for your service. Salu.

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CHAPTER 11

MAY 6, 1991

RECOGNIZING AND FACING DENIAL OF TRUTH WTTHIN SELF AND OTHERS: THE "SECRET" INHIBITOR OF TAKING PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY.

Greetings, Precious Druthea. I AM Sananda, One With God. I come in the service to Holy God/Aton of Light and lo YOU, my brethren.
This day we have a petition of which we are honored to re­spond. This one petitions in behalf of ALL and ALL of you have lived within what is termed a stale of DENIAL of truth at various times in your lives...and MOST still exist within this bubble of separation from responsibility.
Let us define denial, "1. A contradiction, as of a statement. 2. A disowning or disavowal. 3. Refusal to grant, give, or allow. To deny," 1. To declare to be untrue; contradict. 2. To refuse to believe, as a doctrine. 3. To refuse to give or grant; with­hold. 4. To refuse lo acknowledge; disown."
Now to fully understand and thus recognize denial WITHIN yourself or another, you must understand the "negative" emotion which stands guard over denial of truth...and that most often is FEAR. ^You ones have become ever fearful of making change because it means looking within the mirror of self and taking responsibility for those feelings, behaviors and actions which deny the power of GOD within you.
One of the most common "feelings" which must be faced in one who denies responsibility is his feeling of unworthiness, because along with unworthiness is fear of rejection of self IF, for ex­ample, ones KNEW how you REALLY feel inside. It feels quite UGLY lo feel unworthy and lo carry emotionally depleting "parasites" within. Remember, chelas, YOU choose to feel un­worthy. 11 mailers NOT what "judgment" any other being wishes lo attach to you. You choose lo allow or "perceive" an­other's derogatory opinions as detrimental to you because YOU wish to continue to feed your own unworthiness. Self-Denial allows you to remain in self-centered separation in which all which occurs within your space of experience is responded to PERSONALLY as to HOW you allow it to affect YOU, without consideration of others who share your space and/or experience.

So one way to recognize DENIAL in self and in another is when self-centered behavior, meaning, "Concerned chiefly with one's own affairs and interests, often with a lack of consideration for others," is exhibited in ways such as, BLAME, HURT and VICTIMHOOD. Also, look for passive resistant thoughts and actions in self, which means the desire to "get even" for the per­ceived wrong against you. Only it is done in very indirect, se­cret or subtle ways, such as through sabotage(Any act per­formed to hamper or obstruct). In many ones, passive resistant behavior may exhibit itself by these ones denying to give assis­tance when asked, deliberate procrastination of an agreed upon task, "reporting" the grievance to an "authority" without first speaking lo the perceived "perpetrator" , or even refusing to speak honestly to the ones who their anger is directed at, espe­cially when specifically ASKED to do so.

Another reason ones deny sharing honest feelings with anotheris that the one who is afraid to "tell his opinion of thetruth" is afraid of what heperceives may be a "negative" painful or an­gry response by the other. Often ones will not confront anotherand the reason they tell themselves is, THEY don't wishto cause pain or rejection to the other. For example, in the case of when a "relationship" is kindled between two and then one de­cides that he is not compatible with the other and wishes to "break it off'. When what he is really afraid of is COMMIT­MENT of responsibility lo the other or LOVING the other fully that he may somehow be compromised of freedom. Ones can­not be honest with another if they DENY their true feelings within of SELF. Therefore, the confusion becomes manifested FOR BOTH in that neither understands the behavior or true feelings of the other and both wonder what went wrong. Theone rejected becomes resentful and angry. The one rejectingsimply ignores the other because hedoes not know "what losay". This then becomesan "unresolved" conflict of which the "effects" of the "cause" of denial and irresponsible behavior will continue lo "challenge" both of these ones in "future" circum­stances. ..that is until the lesson is recognized, UNDERSTOOD, released and responsible behavior is truly taken.

Here is an example which has and docs occur in many so-calledlove relationships between couples, married or otherwise. The"wife" is angry at her husband because he didn't even notice thenew furniture and her new hairstyle and he seldom wants to "talk about and share" his feelings about work or other "things", so she begins to feel neglected and unappreciated. But rather than discussing her feelings with him, she looks for ways lo deny HIM that which he "needs", expects or wants. So often she finds herself with a "headache" when he displays "lustful" intent. When he asks her what is wrong, she says, "Nothing", but continues lo sabotage their relationship in other ways, such as getting drunk and disorderly at the office party and "forgetting" to pick him up at the airport. Well, the husband does not understand and is confused by her behavior, and he definitely feels the "sling" of her anger which she refuses to ac­knowledge when he confronts her. He can do nothing to assist solving the problem if his wife denies there is one. So what is SHE really looking for? Perhaps to be rejected "once again" lo "prove" HER irrational opinion that "all men are worthless" (and so, she feels, is she). This way she need not face HER re­sponsibility for creating the sabotage of the relationship because of her own crippled self-worth and inability to communicate honestly her feelings and fears. In this instance, you have TWO "poor" communicators, and alas, because of this denial of true feelings within both parties, the crippled behaviors continue for both until each faces truth within self that THEY each arc re­sponsible for creating the circumstance through lack of trust, feeling fear and unworthiness, and DENIAL of all true feelings. This is why COMMUNICATION barriers MUST be acknowl­edged and confronted within each that the barriers be allowed lo open for true understanding to be allowed lo blossom.

Some ones are so veryfrightened lo acknowledge perceived "negative" feelings lo another, even when confronted directly, because they fear rejection and even punishment. So they may feel "negative" feelings such as resentment, anger or envy and DENY the feelings, often even to themselves. This is why you ones must become MASTERS at identifying "negative" (adversarial) emotions and feelings within SELVES that you can recognize them in others and CONFRONT the behavior that the light of truth be allowed into the space of the denying one even if the denying one be SELF. (Sec "Recognizing the Anti-Christ Within" printed in "The Phoenix Operator/Owner Manual').

It is a very delicate balance to achieve because even when you learn lo accomplish confrontation of the adversary within self and others, often the denial of truth remains, especially in one who is unwilling lo confront self and BE responsible for ac­knowledging truth and thus communicating and acting with in­tegrity. You cannot FORCE another to confront truth even when it is presented to them in balanced integrity intent. You must though, in a responsible manner, bring your observations up honestly to the one who displays adversarial behavior, most especially if you feel the behavior is detrimental to you and oth­ers, for example, within a "work" or "home" circumstance. It is one thing to punish self BY choice, it is quite another to allow one to also PUNISH you and others because they refuse to take responsibility themselves.

You sec, precious, chelas, you indirectly SUPPORT unreason­able and adversarial behavior IF YOU ignore it and, therefore, DO nothing lo change it. Which brings us to our next point which is "common" denial of responsibility, most commonly exhibited within belief structures encouraged within your so-called "New Age" community. Wc of God's Hosts have often heard ones speak and ponder about the terms "negative" and "positive". Often ones believe that they must learn to concen­trate their energy ONLY on what they perceive is labeled "positive" thinking behavior and actions. For example, Com­mander Hatonn and his spokespersons arc often called "gloom and doom" bringers who concentrate upon perceived "negative" information and circumstances. Therefore, BECAUSE ONES REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE TRUTH ABOUT THE "NEGATIVE" (MEANING ADVERSARIAL) CREATED CIRCUMSTANCES WHICH THEY HAVE CONTRIBUTED TO THE CREATION OF, EITHER DIRECTLY OR INDI­RECTLY, THROUGH IGNORANCE AND APATHY, THEY THEN DENY THEIR OWN PERSONAL RESPONSI­BILITY BY CONDEMNING OR EVEN "KILLING" THE "TRUTH-BRINGER" .

Here is another example to add further clarification. If you go to the doctor and he discovers you have cancer within your body, do you demand that he NOT tell you the truth so that you can then deny responsibility for: 1. The manifestation of the dis-ease and 2. Making the necessary changes of thinking, of behavior, and of actions to facilitate YOUR CURE from this se­rious dis-ease within you?
Don't you see? The manifestation of cancer is a gift of warning that there exists unbalance within you? Do you wish to HEAL or continue to deny responsibility? Well the choice is yours lo make. Commander Hatonn and the rest of God's Hosts are here specifically to show you the ANTI-CHRIST CANCER YOU have manifested as a species within yourselves and upon your planet, which has been "hidden" within your government, busi­ness and cultural institutions and organizations. Do you say lo yourself, "Oh my! that is "negative" information and therefore I am not responsible for il. That is someone else's problem; I will practice Ascension or be raptured so I can escape the ugli­ness of which I do not want to be responsible. "

I have news for you ones who feel NOT responsible for that WHICH you as a species have contributed to the creation of. YOU will either take responsibility, NOW, for assisting the rest of your committed brothers and sisters lo do that which GOD within gives you to do to change and heal the "negative" circum­stances and manifestations ALREADY created around you and within you, or you will not be ready for HIGHER responsibility of Conscious Immortality within God's Holy Realms of experi­ence. There is not much "time" left for you to be in the decid­ing. And NONE can take your portion of personal responsibil­ity in your place. (Although your given task(s)in service lo God CAN be filled byanother, if you findyourself unwilling to perform themin balanced integrity.) You arc accountable to self and GOD for that which you DO or NOT DO, if that be the case.

So what can you do if you find yourself wanting to "hide" from and not face responsibility of finding truth and taking necessary action? Recognize first that your denial of facing "negative" created circumstances of which your world is full is because of FEAR. You arc afraid of that which you may have to do in or­der lo BE responsible and change the circumstance. You are afraid you have NOT the power to change it. You are afraid of what "others" will think of you if you face them honestly. You are afraid you will fail lo make a difference should you begin changes. And you are afraid of the perceived "unknown" risk to yourself when you begin to "rock the boat" of adversarial control. You arc afraid because you have, in your "past", lived in ignorance of Truth and have successfully run from "uncomfortable" feelings and responsibility, thinking that per­haps you have or can remain innocent of the effects of the evil about your plane, which through your ignorance you have ALLOWED and SUPPORTED. I believe you ones have a cliche' which is succinctly apropos, "What I don't know can't hurt me." That statement of false belief says it all, chelas. WHAT YOU HAVEN'T KNOWN AND REFUSED TO SEE HAS HURT YOU AND YOUR BELOVED PLANET. IGNO­RANCE OF TRUTH HAS UNDERMINED GOD WITHIN YOU, BY CONDONING THE REPEATED BREAKING OF HIS COSMIC LAWS OF BALANCE SO THAT HIS SPIRIT OF LIGHT, OF LOVE, AND OF HARMONY HAS NO PLACE TO GROW...THE DARKNESS AND SUFFERING CANCEROUS DIS-EASE HAS BEEN AND CONTINUES TO BE SO VERY DEVASTATING TO YOUR SPECIES. THE ADVERSARY HAS COUNTED ON CONTROLLING THAT WHICH YOU "KNOW" AND "BELIEVE" SO THAT HE CAN BIND YOU INTO PERCEIVED HELPLESSNESS AND SLAVERY TO ITS "ILLUSION" OF PHYSICAL MANI­FESTED FLESHLY ATTACHMENT. THE ADVERSARY "NEEDS" SLAVES TO CONTROL AND MANIPULATE TO HAVE AND ENFORCE THE "POWER" OF DESTRUCTION WHICH IT DESIRES TO WIELD IN ITS HATRED OF GOD AND ALL THAT IS OF GOODNESS AND GODLY INTENT.

You must ask yourselves, precious chelas, "How do YOU feed the ANTI-CHRIST to give IT power over God WITHIN you?" What is it you truly FEAR which paralyzes you and makes you wish to HIDE and NOT BE responsible? I, hopefully, have given yen some ideas where you may begin to unfold the source of your FEAR that you may then release it through TRUSTING GOD OF LIGHT WITHIN TO SHOW YOU THAT WHICH YOU NEED TO KNOW IN ORDER TO SUSTAIN ONLY IN HIS SERVICE. You will be guided and shown that which will bring you knowledge and understanding of truth and through empowerment of gaining WISDOM of Truth you will receive GOD'S blessings of INNER PEACE and Balanced Creative Unfoldment. You must first desire to serve GOD and your in­tent creates THE WAY for you lo go and remain in GOD'S WINGS OF LOVE AND PROTECTION.

You must sec, precious chelas, that you ones who even deny the existence of the Anti-Christ, Adversary to God, do so so that YOU need not face responsibility WHEN the Anti-Christ is AL­LOWED by YOU to control your very being. The destructive results of the Anti-Christ exist all about you; do you deny this truth as well, that your "rosy" view not be disturbed and make you uncomfortable? WELL, HAVE YOU EVER CONSID­ERED THE COMFORT OF THIS BELOVED PLANET AS YOU POLLUTE HER WATERS AND SOILS AND ATMO­SPHERE WITH IRRESPONSIBLE THOUGHTS AND TECHNOLOGIES OF DEATH AND DESTRUCTION? HOW CAN YOU LIVE IN AN OBVIOUS FACADE OF "SPLENDOR" WHEN MOTHER EARTH SCREAMS IN AGONY OF DESPAIR AT THE EVIL CAUSED HER BY YOUR UNBALANCED, UNGODLY BEHAVIOR TOWARD HER, YOURSELF AND EACH OTHER?

It is time for you each to find the balance of God which exists within you. Those who resist this change to balance, who choose to swim "upstream" against GOD'S WILL will remain 3rd dimensional experience as a puppet for the adversary... and so, too, remainin self-imposed ignorance for the "lime" neces­sary to recognize the errors of thought and behavior and correct the imbalances caused to self because of them (the errors). God and weof His Hosts offer you THE WAY HOME through giv­ing youthe opportunity TO SEE AND KNOW TRUTH ABOUT THE CANCER YOU'VE CREATED AND WHICH YOU CAN HEAL THROUGH RESPONSIBLE THINKING AND BEHAVIOR AND ALIGNING YOURSELVES WITHIN THE LAWS OF BALANCE OF GOD AND THE CRE­ATION as given forth.

There is naught lo fear WHEN you attune your will with that of GOD'S WILL for HE is THE WAY, THE TRUTH, THE KNOWLEDGE and THE POWER, and HE EXISTS WITHIN YOU! HE NEVER TURNS FROM THEE, NEVER! WILL YOU TURN FROM HIM? HE ALLOWS YOU TO MAKE THAT CHOICE, PRECIOUS ONES. WHAT WILL YOU DO? The adversary, on the other hand, IF he is allowed and welcomed entrance into YOUR TEMPLE OF GOD, is an insa­tiable parasite of destruction upon ALL that is OF GOD and GOODNESS. YOU HAVE THE POWER WITHIN YOU OF GOD TO CAST THE ADVERSARY OUT...FOREVER! SO BE IT AND SELAH!

Thank you forthis opportunity lo bring further clarity and un­derstanding to our brethren, precious Druthea. I AM Sananda. I come in service to HOLY DIVINE GOD/ATON OF LIGHT AND THE CREATION. May you each find inner peace which wisdom brings. I love you dearly, my brothers and sisters! Ponder your lessons carefully. Walk in peace. Salu.

CHAPTER 12

MAY 8, 1991

SUCCESSFUL COMMUNICATION MEANS RECOGNIZING AND CLEARLY DEFINING "INNER" EXPECTATIONS

Greetings, precious Drulhca. We arc Sananda, Lord Michael, and St. Germain. We come in the service of Holy God/Aton of Light and The Creation.

We will begin this day with the challenge of peeling away the "barriers" to successful communication in your "human" lan­guages by efforting to show you how you can stretch the limita­tions of human language to achieve clearer and more succinct communication ability with one another.

Because "Universal Language" has no limiting "words", it is God's perfect language. When beings communicate in Uni­versal language, there is no way to "lie" to yourself or another about your intent, since it is the language which utilizes pure thought from that which is "in the heart/spirit" as...feeling. So the key to more successful communication on your plane is to learn to fully understand HOW you feel about a circumstance before you. Now, emotion is defined as, "A strong surge of FEELING, as of love, hate, or fear." So by understanding and identifying your feeling accurately, you will find that YOUR perceptions and beliefs about any given circumstance will bring up certain emotional feelings. First, you must correctly deter­mine which emotion you actually do feel. For example, when you correctly determine that you are afraid, then you must de­termine WHY you are afraid in order for you to successfully re­solve it. Fear is a feeling one has generally when he feels threatened in some way. Every emotion is SHOWING you something... a lesson to be understood, or a sustaining need we all have, such as absolute/unconditio nal LOVE. For example, when you arc touched by some act or behavior done for you or another in kindness which absolute love expresses, you feel JOYand UNITY.

On the other hand, when you are angry or hurl about something someone said or did "to" you and you fail to identify ACTU­ALLY WHY you feel this way, then you will be unable to communicate effectively to "clarify" what may perhaps be a misperception on your part. Then most often, your unresolved anger and hurt will actually propel you to respond in a variety of "punishing" behaviors directed toward self, the other who you perceived caused you pain, ALL others with whom you come in contact, or all of the above. One of the common ways ones re­spond irresponsibly, which we discussed previously, is through "passive-resistant" behavior, in which one is afraid or simply unwilling to confront the person honestly about his anger and/or hurl feelings and therefore seeks indirect ways to punish the perceived perpetrator against him. Others of you ones respond most directly your anger and hurt lo the perceived perpetrator, and then, of course, when ones begin arguing about WHO is RIGHT and WHO is WRONG, nothing is solved, and resent­ment begins to establish itself most firmly, especially when ones stubbornly refuse to search the common ground of cause which allows self-understanding of MUTUAL responsibility of the cir­cumstance. When mutual understanding of each "point of per­ception" is accomplished for each, then a satisfying resolution, which recognizes joint responsibility of forgiveness and release of the "error", can be reached. Of course, both must wish to resolve the issue between them, for if one's objective is to deny responsibility and continue to blame and punish, then THEY must deal with what is now their PROBLEM on their own. The others must stand firm with integrity to not allow themselves to be PULLED down or into an emotional drama of one who is unwilling to reasonably resolve their problem.

Now, feeling anger and hurt is definitely a most uncomfortable place to be, in that one will feel isolated, separated and rejected and so his "altered" ego will urge him to cast blame outside of self. Many of you have most likely heard the saying or even have personally fell like "It is ME against the World". It is not a comfortable feeling to feel unsupported and "victimized" and so il is up lo YOU lo learn lo sol aside "Altered" Ego percep­tions so that you can successfully uncover HOW you have con­tributed to the cause of this "victim" self-separation and/or mis­understanding with another.

One of the challenges you ones have in your interrelationships is responsible communication. In order to communicate responsi­bly, YOU each must become acutely in touch with WHY you feel these "negative" emotions, such as fear, anger, jealousy and resentment. For example, many of you ones often use "sarcastic humor" to stale your true feelings, let off "steam" and yet still "hide" the feelings. Many of your so-called comedian have successfully used cutting, sarcastic and sardonic jokes to tell the world or even particular others HOW they really feel about them...and then ,of course, they call it humor. They be­have as if it's okay to call it a "joke" because they assume it is less painful to the ones the sarcasm is directed at, only deep in­side, THEY KNOW IT IS NOT LESS PAINFUL AT ALL. Ones who USE sarcasm in their communication, whether it be a comedians or not, must recognize they most often harbor intense feelings of unresolved anger and/or unworthiness and they de­sire to feel superior by causing pain, somewhat indirectly by calling it "humor", lo others because of these intense unresolved FEELINGS within.

Let's give you ones a common example of how many of you USE what you call "humor" to express inner hurt and/or superiority/ unworthiness. We have often heard you ones make a sar­castic (An ironical or scornful utterance; contemptuous and taunting language) remark, such as, "When God said brains, you thought He said trains, so that's why you have no brains" and then you'll say, "No, Just Kidding "...ha ha ha. We have heard so many unkind things said by you ones to each other, and then, "No, I'm just kidding". Sorry, chelas, MOSTLY YOU ARE NOT "JUST" KIDDING in these circumstances. This is most often a "dig" and usually falls under "passive-resistant" behav­ior. You have a wondrous cliche' in this regard. "Many a TRUTH is said in jest". So be it.

Now we will discuss expectations, to expect defined as, "1. To look forward to as a certain or probable. 2. To look for as right, proper, or necessary. 3. Informal To presume; suppose."

All of you have expectations, whether you completely under­stand what they are or not. Of course, for successful communi­cation in your interrelationships, being CLEAR yourself about what are your expectations within any given relationship and/or situation is essential. Now there arc what can be termed "reasonable" or "realistic" expectations as well as "unreasonable" and "unrealistic" expectations. For example, there is certainly nothing "wrong" with looking forward to being justly treated, or lo making a successful speech. Those are rea­sonable expectations for one who treats others justly, and one who prepares properly for his speech. But to expect that others will behave AS YOU would in any given circumstance is most unrealistic. All will behave according lo their own inner in­tegrity, or lack there of, or they will behave according to the dictates of their own individual personality, which may certainly be correct for them, only perhaps not YOUR way. In order to successfully interrelate in harmony and balance, ALL expecta­tions must be acknowledged openly, so that all expectations which arc determined reasonable be defined clearly for all. In this way the integrity of your defined common expectations and objectives, such as work objectives, will not be compromised because of unresolved emotions, unrealistic expectations or other allowed misunderstandings.

There arc many kinds of what would be termed "social" expec­tations, such as saying, "Thank you" when someone does something nice for you or serves you in some way. In most all situations, gratitude expressed to another is most reasonable and certainly appreciated, if it is sincere. Now ask yourselves, chelas, when you ones GIVE something to another, whether it be a physical gift or something intangible such as friendship, love and support, what DO you expect in return? You are NOT honest with yourselves, chelas, if you tell yourselves, "I expect nothing." Because even when you extend YOUR hand in sin­cere love, kindness and friendship, YOU expect the one you give lo to LIKE you and feel connected to you in return. You want to bo a part of their life by letting them know YOU appre­ciate and support them. You enjoy the inner "rewards" of giv­ing which makes someonefeel good and appreciated. If the re­ceiver is ungracious to you, face it, chelas, you arc disappointed and often saddened.

Let us give another example of expectations. When you person­ally make your commitment lo serve GOD, what do you expect in return for your service? Well, certainly a "reasonable" ex­pectation is that you expect to be guided and sustained, to be protected and fulfilled within your service, do you not? Or what do YOU expect? Do you expect that you need not be re­sponsible for your own behavior? Do you expect your life to be "problem" free and your lessons easier? Do you expect lo be more special than your other brothers and sisters? Do you "bargain" with God: you'll give this, IF He gives that? We are asking you to really be HONEST with yourselves, chelas, be­cause your "unreasonable" expectations are NEVER met and so it is best to uncover them NOW so that you can find the true PEACE, JOY and BALANCE in your service to God, which reasonable expectations provide for you.

Now, we would like you ones to clearly think about what arc your expectations when and if you decide to make your home in Tehachapi? Do you expect spiritual perfection of the ones al­ready committed in service? Do you expect "social" fun and entertainment from Dharma, Oberli, Hatonn, George and Desiree' and the others here? Do you expect the businesses cre­ated by these ones to financially support you, now or in the fu­ture? WHY do you wish to be here? To be closer to God, per­haps? To learn how lo be closer to God? Remember YOU are the temple for God. Do you recognize a purpose for you, per­haps, a way to serve GOD where you are able and willing to do so? Do you expect Hatonn lo tell you what you must do as your service to GOD? Do you KNOW what your service is? For we will tell you, as has our beloved brother Hatonn, that Tehachapi is a place of work, of commitment of service to GOD/ATON Our Father, to assist the growth, transition and cleansing of a sick/unbalanced humanity and this beloved planet, Shan. We have a job, and YOU ones who choose to serve God are the hands and feet of HIS Brotherhood of LIGHT. The road is of­ten most painful and precarious for you beloved ones of GOD's service, most especially emotionally, until you ones learn to de­tach from others' often cruel rejection of you and their unwill­ingness lo SEE the truth. God only asks that YOU do your job lo the best of your ability. Do you expect that you WILL? Ponder these things, chelas, for in confronting self-expectations in responsibility, you will unlock that door lo the inner peace and fulfillment which has often eluded most of you in your "past" experiences.

TRUST

Now we will discuss a very prominent barrier to successful communication within your interrelationships, and that is TRUST, defined as, "1. Confident reliance on the integrity, honesty, or justice of another; faith. 2. Something committed to one's care; a charge or responsibility. "

Trust is a most delicate subject in that most all of you have ci­ther breached a trust and/or been the "victim" of a breach of trust by others. So as a result, most of you find it difficult to es­tablish complete trust and faith in others whom you share expe­rience with. First of all, many of you now recognize that you as "common people" have blindly trusted your government leaders and many of THEM have breached YOUR trust by lying and deceiving you for their own selfish means. So it stands to rea­son that you NOT give trust blindly or freely to other HUMAN beings until you KNOW of their integrity and intent. For exam­ple, DO YOU DESERVE to be trusted? Are you able to keep the private matters of another who trusts you with sharing them with you, to yourself? Do you respect the privacy of others? Or arc you always looking over the fence of others to see what they arc doing, which is NONE of your business unless it is harmful lo you or impacts you in some way that is not reason­able. Many of you have a very dangerous "habit" of gossiping about and then you wonder WHY you are NOT trusted by oth­ers. This is why it is most important that for trust to develop, ones must clearly define what matters are privately shared and a shared commitment of responsible communication is adopted byboth or all panics, so that any possiblemisunderstandings can be ironed out quickly and completely. In true dedicated friendship and the commitment thereof, ones always have the shared ob­jective of achieving mutual trust, support, loyalty and under­standing, especially when differences come up for them to man­age together.
There is really little else more painful and disappointing than for one of you, who possesses honest integrity within, lo establish and nurture a friendship, give your love, loyally and trust lo an­other and then find that they do not honor and trust you enough to speak honestly to you about their true feelings and instead they spite you behind your back, or even more disheartening, that they have actually USED you for their own selfish means such as to gain money, prestige, sexual conquest or power and NEVER really thought of you as a cherished friend. How many of you now can say that you have trouble trusting others because you have allowed yourself to be USED by choosing the "wrong" person to develop friendship with because they did not have the same degree of commitment to your friendship as did you? This breach of trust occurs often in so-called "Love" relationships and marriages, often after the "lustful" feelings taper off.

So by now you may be contemplating, HOW do you properly solve a perceived "error" or misunderstanding with integrity with one whom you claim as your friend? First of all, you need to acknowledge your feelings, if they be anger, hurt, frustration or whatever, and then you must set up a time to privately and personally talk to the person you have the problem with. Now you must be very careful how you approach the person, since they may not have any idea of what your problem is or their connection with it. Tell them how you're feeling, "I feel hurl and upset because I wasn't invited to your family dinner, per­haps I have misunderstood or misinterpreted something, so will you help me to understand your position so that we can resolve this together?" In this way, you have not placed any blame and you have shown that you value the other person by asking them to assist the resolution of what may be simply your own misun­derstanding or over-sensitivity, or it may actually be something more than you have understood, from your friend's point ofperception, perhaps that this one was irritated with you about something you did, or he just simply felt it was not necessary for you to be there at that time.

Now, inbusiness, there are MANY expectations which ones have about operating their business with integrity. For example, when you purchase a product by phone or mail, do you not EX­PECT to receive it within a reasonable time-frame and in good condition? Many things can happen between the time you order and when you (hopefully) receive your order. Many business owners want lo keep your business by insuring customer satis­faction, so they have a policy of "The customer is always right." Well that is not necessarily true, is it? What about ones who purchase items, such as books, from you on agreed upon terms, such as 10 days or 30 days,-DO you not expect them to pay you in full within thattime frame? Interestingly enough, MANY businesses, even when given and they have agreed to 30 day payment terms, have a policy that THEY do not pay before 60 or even 90 days. Is this operating business with integrity? So it has become not reasonable within your current business society to TRUST ones, especially NEW customers, to pay you for products they purchase. Yet many retail business-persons be­come indignant when asked lo pre-pay for their purchase and often will simply not buy, unless THEY need the items perhaps to fill a special order for one of their customers. And why. do many bookstores, for example, balk when asked to pre-pay? Because they do not know whether or not the books will sell within a 30 day time-frame and "need" the time to return the funds from actual sales to the publisher or distributor. Now America West, for example, has perhaps a little over a dozen of their total "open" resale accounts who arc responsible and really do pay in full within the agreed time-frame. The rest do not honor their agreement with America West, and several have NEVER paid their balance, so because of this, America West, in order to continue to pay its printing and overhead expenses now ASKS all new resale accounts lo pre-pay with no MINI­MUM order required and NO returns allowed. Do you blame them? It is interesting lo note that many bookstores and distrib­utors expect lo be able to RETURN unsold books, as well as, lake 30 days to 6 months lo pay for them. So then, of course, the RISK of loss isentirely in the publishers hands. So you pon­der this, chelas, Isthat reasonable?

Now, how many of you have or know someone who has pur­chased something, say from a department store, and then a year later ask to RETURN it? How many of you have or know someone who has purchased an expensive dress, for a special occasion, and after wearing it, they return it? This is very common, even with middle class and upper middle class women who are in the "social" set and can "afford" to pay for the dress. Well, many department stores have "caught on" to this practice and now DO NOT ALLOW returns for certain dressy attire. Do you understand, chelas, what we are efforting lo show you here? Many ones simply do not behave with integrity, and it has become ACCEPTABLE lo many ones to behave this way! Many simply do not KNOW better and even brag about HOW they take advantage of businesses. So ones who do wish to op­erate with integrity and responsibility must EXPECT a degree of dishonesty from a percentage of business customers. Many businesses have a special term for this expected percentage of loss, theft and damaged products, they call it normal shrinkage. The results, if shrinkage becomes unreasonable, are often higher prices to the consumer, if the business wishes to stay in busi­ness. How sad it is that so many have become slaves to this beast of selfish deception and deceit. However, you will find, precious chelas, that as you align yourself in service to GOD, your conscience will not allow you to get away with any sort of unbalanced behavior, without some careful and often difficult contemplation of the consequences thereof. So Be it.

Thank you, precious chelas, for your attention. Druthea, you are most blessed in your loving and giving service unto Our Father. Thank you, precious little sister of ours. We are Sananda, Lord Michael and St. Germain. We come in the ser­vice of Holy God/Alon of Light and The Creation. May you walk in the peace which true knowledge and understanding brings. Salu.