PJ 09
CHAPTER 17

REC. #1 HATONN

FRI., NOV. 10, 1989 7:30 A.M. YEAR 3, DAY 086
FRI., NOV. 10, 1989

Hatonn is present with greetings in the Light of the Radiant One. Let there ever be peace between us for we have much to do and learn one from the other.

I petition you to watch very closely the events as they unwind in Berlin, please. Do not misinterpret that which is happening. The communists are not being such nice brothers and parents, they are in economic disaster. From your contributions to stabilize these foundering countries coming into self government and freedom of movement you will be further distressed as a nation who, too, is in economic devastation without additional load. IT IS PLANNED TO THE LAST DETAIL AND YOU ARE BLUNDERING RIGHT INTO THE TRAP. YOU DO NOT WITNESS YOUR PRESIDENT IN GRAND SPECTACLE OF EXCITED MERRIMENT OVER A WALL WHICH HAS COME DOWN. YOU ARE GOING TO NOW WATCH YOUR PRESIDENT BECOME A MOST CALCULATING AND EFFICIENT WORKER. YOU MUST HAVE ATTENTION DRAWN FROM THE FAILURES OF YOUR DRUG WAR, WAR ON CRIME AND CENTRAL AMERICA’S PLIGHT. WATCH MOST CAREFULLY FOR THAT WHICH IS HIDDEN IN THE UPCOMING MEETING WITH SHAMIER OF ISRAEL; MOST CAREFULLY INDEED.

Yes, Dharma, the Anti-Christ “leader” is soon to make a move--he is presently in your state of Egypt; he is quite unknown but being tutored most diligently for his task ahead. He is not of Egypt. Watch most closely that place I have spoken of so many times before, Syria. Of course I shall not tell you who--you ones don’t seem to ever understand the danger in up-front information. Keep your eyes open and minds alert and you will find your own answers popping forth. You ones are simply “curious” and want inside information for salving that curiosity. You continually forget this computer is hooked directly to CIA surveillance systems and this house is electronically “bugged”. Do not ask me questions which I must refuse to answer and please do not push me for answers and discussions if I have declined to respond. I do not mind that you ask, just please understand if I must refuse to respond.

I must caution you regarding your cattle mutilation thrillers and your abductions, etc. Your government does not hesitate a minute to destroy and murder.

Yes, there have been animals taken by our brothers in this mission. But they are taken and placed in various locations for stocking purposes of mother ships and other placements for you ones at massive relocation time. Yes, we have inspected many of your cattle and sheep because your government has introduced cattle bovine leukemia viruses and sheep visna viruses into your sheep herds. These are the causative mutant factors which when combined with your vaccines such as smallpox, measles, etc., produce the AIDS virus in human culture. No, we do not mutilate, drain blood nor utilize ritualistic “parts” of carcasses.

Most of the mutilations are not done by your Satanic brothers, either, except that many are utilized in that manner but mostly in your neighborhood locations. The major findings of stock mutilations are perpetrated by your gov­ernment in a most intentional manner. Most are staged in locations where they are sure to be found and made public.

Further, many incidents from your mid to late 60’s and 70’s were in areas where dual discounting could be effective. One prime location is in the mountains of Utah and Colorado where known UFO bases are in place. Further, around your city of Salt Lake, a major effort was, and is, thrust forth to discredit the Mormon church. I make no comment, mind you, on the Church of Latter Day Saints--I simply tell you there is an all-out thrust to pull the church down.

How many of you are aware that “Mormon” means devil or “top head demon” in many places of your world? In Japan, for instance, the Morman church must use another label and avoid the term Morman for that is exactly what it means--Satan.

It requires most primitive equipment to go and find a rather isolated place and butcher a few cows. You further have all manner of pumps for extracting blood (you have had that availability for years and years in your mortuaries). Further, it is most simple to tranquilize an animal, take it aboard an aircraft and replace it with no disturbance whatsoever to the flora. It is equally as easy to plant UFO landing patterns on the ground itself. Moreso, it is quite easy to have hovercraft which are literal “flying saucers” (you have them, dear ones) and have sightings and “proof” of alien presence. It is well planned and most effective--most effective indeed.

Yes, a great deal of the information came to your military from aliens but most of your “happenings” are the actions of your own earth humans.

In areas where these happenings are prevalent, we patrol most openly. Australia is a prime location. Further, we utilize the ley lines. We also must monitor your tectonic plate movements and your earth upheavals--Australia is a hotbed of activity. Further, your U.S. government has a major underground installation in Australia with most secret and clandestined activities taking place. WE DO NOT PLAY STUPID GAMES--WE HAVE NO NEED OF SUCH.

There is another thing you must remember from our past lessons, we, too, have the use of androids who are most delicate and most sophisticated. There are many reports which claim apprehension in “abductions” which result in the introduction of location or beings of higher form and larger stature. In a deliberate attempt to damage none of our own you are cared for most carefully and graciously. We do not harm and we do not mutilate--if you find a mutilated or burned body laying about--it is not your lighted brotherhood of space. WE HAVE NO SUCH PRIMITIVE NEED AND OUR ENTIRE THRUST IS TO KEEP YOU CALM AND IN EAGERNESS FOR OUR PHYSICAL ARRIVAL--NOT PANIC AND BREED FEAR OF OUR PRESENCE.

Yes, you have all shapes and forms of aliens who are suited to various life conditions. Further, there are species who will take your planet after your species can no longer physically survive. There are ones who have come--at your governments request--to help you in a growing atmosphere of carbon dioxide, and you captured them, made hostile public statements about them and incinerated them. You are overfilled with evil energies for you are the dwelling place of the cast-out energies.

Let us speak for a moment of one such as a Charles Manson who is a completely absorbed satanic energy. What happens if you give him a death sentence and do in fact kill him? Oh, what a mistake you perpetrate--his energy cycles back immediately and you birth a Ramirez or a Hitler or--or! These energies can always find reentry instantly for they have “breeders” upon your place which have bodies in preparation at all times and of all ages. Bad backgrounds? Of course, for preparations are most carefully made far in ad­vance. ’Tis nothing but the blink of an eye in higher dimensions but ’tis a necessity of “growing” time on your dense placement. Just as you ones all have needed to be birthed, grown, learned and arrived at today--so needs the dark energies.

The dark energies do have it easier than do we of the lighted God source. THEY CAN AND DO HAVE THE ABILITY AND PERMISSION TO COMPLETELY OVERTAKE AND UTILIZE A BODY--ESPECIALLY A PHYSICAL BEING IN COMPROMISE BY ANY ABUSIVE ALTERING SUBSTANCE.

The game is usually pretty fair in the beginning for you are of soul God creation in purity and goodness. Then the impact of experiences hit you and your experience can go any way it chooses. There are, what I think you might call--”bad seeds”, which is a truly foolish identification but will suffice here, whereby an energy is recycled into an infant. It will always come from the lower levels of experience whereby the forming in­fant--at your dimension--is attacked and the higher energy first claiming the physical body in formation is removed for some reason. Many babes who would be stillborn are taken by these energies. Many babes who are malformed physically and would not ordinarily be birthed in living manner are accepted as vehicles for particular energies needing particular growth experience--from the higher levels. Most mal­formed persons are grossly “good” and pure of intent--childlike. Most handicapped persons who overcome the handicap at great odds, are won­drously “good” and God-like.

Evil attacks the beauteous and “perfect” shells if they can at all arrange it for those ones pull the most followers--either to the physical being or to the projections of thought and intent from the evil mind. You see, anyone can be made to believe anything if the circumstance is proper.

Let me example here a moment. Say Billy Meier is most credible--for a while. Then the intent becomes aimed at the discrediting of this contact. Someone will ask to assist him to mock-up a flight craft and/or any number of other things--then wham, instant discredit--allow the model to be found in his barn--make a public statement that Asket looks exactly like the local model in Munich and there you have it.

Let us look closer to home--right in this dwelling. The house is filled with books on UFO’s because Colonel Steven’s daughter sent all the books Wendelle has written and others provide an endless supply of information pertinent to the facts under discussion. I do not wish to injure any feelings but practically none of the UFO books have even been opened and NEVER before the writings at this computer. WE do give her as much good confirmation as soon as possible from some public resource to allow comfort in security. Please continue to share all you acquire with these ones for she is guided to those which are correct and given information regarding those that are incorrect.

For instance, there are exchange training programs with higher cosmic locations set up in various places of your continents. In Africa, there is a most acceptable, to your human citizens, installation and experience program in operation with Koldasians. These ones play no major role in transition--they come for the experience and observation of a species in great trouble. Pleiades has several major installations (bases, if you will) around the areas of the Andes, Belize, and other places which must remain unnamed. It is no secret that there are major installations within areas of the Tetons, Mt. Shasta (although that one has been almost cleared for volcanic reasons), the Uintas, etc. These are centers where cosmic councils and command officers can hold council gatherings. There are ones in the high Tibetan mountains and thus and so.

This is not the forum for production of this information and I only present it for your interest. Each nation upon your orb is of different purpose of belief and intent. You cannot deal with all those ones from let us say, India. Why would you even bother to do so except of curiosity--you are located in the United States of America for a most specific reason and your teaching will be different from that of India. It is much as with physical “business”, if you tend your own instead of that which is none of your business you will flourish; if you effort at tending all, you will fail at all.

At any rate, back to discrediting. Anyone could walk into this dwelling and simply announce Dharma is nuts, subversive or any number of things--lately--a Satanic worshiper because of the literature about the dwelling. When dis­crediting is set about--all is utilized to pull credibility from the source.

This is the major reason that so many of these journals have been produced in such a remarkably limited span of time; she would not have been able to read, retain, format nor produce this quantity of valid, provable material in the human physical form. She is the mother of nine, grandmother to eight with a most special one whom she must walk through the birthing process alongside. The way is completely burdened with legal hearings, title fights over the dwelling, no income--all things which destroy the human psyche; all heaped on at once. Ah yes, the testing has been cruel and relentless. It has required days without sleep and writing at all hours of your time spans. We had weeks of writing at 2:30 to 4:00 a.m. until dawn. She will tell you she does not understand why or how it is done; she has been targeted and literally killed three times within the past year and a half and she sees it not. It was necessary for truth must come forth and it may not come hap-hazardly. She has been deserted and attacked by ones whom she trusted and revered beyond all others, she has lost her root physical family and yet she knows not “why” she is driven to continue. (I write this here for she and Oberli to see as well as others, for they do not understand what has happened here.)

Look within, you who receive of this information, for you will be touched in a most personal manner--it comes forth as a calling tool. The publisher is compelled to get this into print, just as is the printer of these journals and they cannot tell you “why”. The testing is horrendous as the emotional energies are in conflict. Recognize it and you will more quickly come to balance with what overflows within as you receive of these documents. The intent goes so much farther beyond monetary gain that these ones would spit upon mention of it. Ones who are close have had to wait and wait and wait in patience (or simply went away) for directions and individual purposes while we trained and made ready the foundation. If this information lights up your imagination and stirs your desire to action--so be it; allow it to flower for you are hearing the call--the knock. THERE IS HOPE FOR THIS BELOVED LAND AND CIVILIZATION IF ONES BUT HEED THE KNOCK AT THE DOOR THAT WE MIGHT WORK TOGETHER. YOU MUST, HOWEVER, COME INTO TRUTH INSTEAD OF THE LIES THAT YOU HAVE FED UPON FOR EONS OF TIME.

Beloved ones of past experience are at your call now. Mr. Nostradamus is writing just as rapidly as are we. Mr. Tesla, Mr. Russell--wondrous and powerful beings who have literally walked your path are available to give unto you information in proper sequence. When I say “proper sequence”, that is exactly that which I mean. Nothing will be given before it’s time for protection and security--some things will simply not be allowed to come forth through greedy, evil or self-centered persons. For instance, the total cure of AIDS is being stalled out by no more than a handful of persons who literally have the information at their fingertips but are awaiting the windfall of money involved. IT WILL NOT HAPPEN IN THAT MANNER! IT SIMPLY WILL NOT BE ALLOWED TO COME FORTH IN THAT METHOD. FURTHER, ONES SHALL RETURN TO THE TEACHINGS OF GOD AND CREATION IF THEY WISH TO FLOURISH--’TIS SIMPLY THE WAY IT IS. THE RULES ARE QUITE RE­MARKABLY REASONABLE, SUCCINCT AND QUITE WITHIN LOGIC AND REASON. THERE IS A THING CALLED EMOTIONAL FEELING AND PHYSICAL BEHAVIOR--YOU AS A SPECIES HAVE CONFUSED THE TWO. SO BE IT.

May I please be excused from this task, Dharma, for I am heavily occupied this morning. I realize that I have so much more on this subject of craft in your attention and ones who have interacted with brethren of the higher realms, etc., but ones must accept that I speak truth and the fantasies must taper off and the truth filter within. Further, I nor you, have the time to spend longer on the subject until after we finish the information regarding evil. This should only require a few more days and we can move on to other subject material. To speak of the evil energies does in actuality summon them, and we must put these portions behind us, for the impact is too great on you ones within this space. I request that you take a great deal of time in rest today for you cannot depend of gaining rest until after our baby is birthed. You will be given that which you need. In love and respect I take my leave; please find interim comfort in this which I have shared and be patient for a bit longer and we shall fully cover these subject matters. I salute you for both your patience and service.


SALU, SALU, SALU,

HATONN TO STAND-BY circuits clear, please



PJ 09
CHAPTER 18

REC. #1 SANANDA

SUN., NOV. 12, 1989 7:00 A.M. YEAR 3, DAY 088
SUN., NOV. 12, 1989

Sananda present to resume work on the journal. I would suggest that you determine if there are portions of the past three days of Commander Hatonn’s responses to G.G.’s questions to be in­serted. It is often good for ones receiving these journals to understand that we are as close as your telephone--with an unlisted number of course. Just dial “GOD”, the operator knows our extension numbers!

We will do as much work as possible this day for you will have a babe to cuddle most soon now but we do have to arrange for stars by night and clouds by day, etc., so you have a few hours in which we might put this journal to rest. If so, we can allow you to simply stay in your mobile covered wagon in the town so that you can catch up a bit on your rest as well as birth the babe.

I would most like this journal to be out to the public by the Christmas holidays if at all possible--advertisement could go with the shipment of the prior books as distributed but this year a heavy thrust is intended by the Satanic troops at holiday time. That might well be mentioned in the notification of availability. It is not mine birthday, nor Jesus’ birthday (which was in August--8th I believe you count, the symbol of infinity--I have a most thoughtful father, by the old calendars it was also 8 ‘B.C.’) but it is the accepted time of celebration and there is a demonstration planned this season in the under­ground. All ones must tend of the little children most closely--never leave them alone for a moment and check your tenders most well if you leave them for holiday events. I cannot stress this need enough! If there are events, take them with you if possible, or do not attend!

Let us now move on with this distasteful journal. I left you at last portion with a discussion of one Sean Sellars. I shall leave him now but shall return to him for you must know the workings within his mind at the time of his terrible crimes. He has turned unto me and I would petition that he be left in the state of aliveness for he can do much good from his place of incar­ceration. But he must reap his just rewards and be an example to other children who are tempted into the evil path.


KING DIAMOND

Most of you reading this document will not even know who this is. He is one of your up-front heavy-metal stars. I believe his name is David. By his own words, “I am a practicing Satanist, but we never try to preach that religion to anybody--Satan has nothing to do with concerts.” So be it!

At the concerts by this creature the children are frantically maddened by symbols, lights and mind blasting noise. The song lyrics are literally laced with references to death, coffins, graves, evil, rape, murder, suicide, etc. The results are prevalent all over your planet and in the U.S. from coast to coast. In your country satanic activity is increasing dramatically. In Maine, a dozen of your orthodox churches were completely defaced with satanic symbols and threats. In California, New Jersey, Alabama and elsewhere police have found inverted crosses, pentagrams, mutilated animals and all sorts of satanic paraphernalia.

TEENAGE KILLERS

The most pathetic, though not necessarily the most horrendous, are those crimes urged on by so-called adult practicing Satanists and music crazed-minded children.

In Douglas County, Georgia, the judge sentenced l7 year old Milissa Ernest to life in prison with these words, “I’m sorry for you, young lady, and I sentence you to a life in prison. And I’m sorry for you--I can only wish you good luck.”

Seventeen year old Melissa Ernest and two other teenage members of her coven admitted drinking her 15 year old victim’s blood, then dancing around her still warm body.

From a small town in Maine: “Yesterday’s conviction of Scott Waterhouse for the murder of 12 year old Gizelle Cody may finally bring to an end talk of a satanic cult in the town.”

Long Island, New York: Police arrest 17 year old Rick Casso for the ritual murder of 15 year old Gary Lauer. Casso gouged out his victim’s eyes. It is most horrifying to realize the level of vio­lence involved in these crimes and the total lack of remorse at any level when first confronted. The violence in Satan’s name is appalling and savage, brutal enough to sicken even the most hardened of police investigators--unless they, too, are practicing “Satanists”. Consider the next instance:

In New Jersey, officer Paul Hart saw the unthinkable--a boy just turned 14 years of age, Tommy Sullivan, murdered and mutilated his own mother. Tommy had written a contract with the devil before he butchered his mother with his boy scout knife. The murder took place in the basement of the Sullivan family home. “Tommy died as brutally as his mother, through wounds self inflicted first to his arms and wrists. Following that he literally slit his own throat from ear to ear with the same three and a half inch knife--from the windpipe, all the way back to the spinal column--to the point of almost taking his head off.”

A couple of years ago another youngster, in Missouri, and three of his friends who had been dabbling in Satanism and listening “to a minimum of five hours a day heavy-metal acid rock”, carried baseball bats, a cat and a length of rope to an isolated spot near their home town. By the time the night was over, the cat had been mutilated and one of the boys beaten to death by the other three, then dumped in a well. I shall only speak of one of the boys for he has come forward and is most willing to speak publicly--along with his mother whom I give great honor for sharing. This beautiful in appearance young man, Pete Roland, is in prison in Fulton, Missouri, sentenced to life without parole. His two friends are also sentenced to “life”. For the record you will find their labels to be Jim Hardy and Bud Clemmons.

Pete Roland said he and his friends started out by listening to the heavy music, and using drugs, and then killing animals--this by his own words. In the frenzy of the fatal night the bloody ritual ended with Pete and his friends striking 19 year old Steven Newberry, some seventy blows with the bats. After the first blow Steven asked, “Why me?” and one of the boys responded, “Because it’s fun!” Pete can’t remember how many times he personally struck Steven--”just a lot”.

This is one of the most beautiful young men you will ever encounter--perfection in physical appearance, handsome, well spoken and now one of mine own.

Now, important that you hold the following close to your hearts for this is truly the way the evil leader works--! When asked about his feelings re­garding Satan the young man replied, “He lied. He promised us power and control and now we have nothing--he lied and double-crossed us, he just leaves you empty and destroyed--after it was over (the killing), I was just empty. I don’t know how I felt--I guess I really didn’t feel anything.” and he goes on, “I didn’t think ‘right or wrong’ because it just didn’t mean anything. I just had no appreciation for good or bad, but just from what I was into--I just needed to do ‘bad’--it was like, in my head to do it. There is really no way to explain it. I really never felt good about myself, I had really low self-esteem and the things that I’d seen in the satanism--I thought I’d get power and popularity and I felt like I had a place of belonging in my . . . . . and it did make me feel like I belonged --.”

When questioned about whether or not the killing made a difference, he replied, “It didn’t really make a difference to me because I considered thoughts of suicide myself and I felt like he was me in a way because he had the same beliefs as me and he was kind of like me. If I didn’t care about myself, then I really wouldn’t care about someone like me.

“The guy who got me started into this was really popular, he was the president of my senior class. I got curious, and just like I said over and over again--power. I just felt a sense of machoism or something--made me feel big like a king in a sense of how he feels over all his servants.

“But then, I don’t feel really too good now, as far as all that’s happened. But in a way I feel better because I’m away from that stuff and I know that people do love me in a real way and I am a Christian now . . .I guess I’ll have a long time to think about it.”


WHAT OF THE PARENTS?

And what of the grieving parent? Who eases the pain of the grieving, guilt ridden parent? May we please look at a picture of what happens- - -:

Pete’s mother, Penny Baert, “There were some things that I saw that I should have paid attention to. I saw the album covers and they are hideous. I just assumed that if they sell them, it’s got to be OK. I assumed it was a passing phase--I had my things at that age. I assumed that he had his--I assumed wrong.

“Well, I think what I mostly noticed was that Pete began to avoid us as a family. He didn’t want to be around us. I remember mostly when I would come home and fix dinner, he would come home, go to his room, and when my husband and I were through eating and had left the kitchen, then Pete would come in and eat. Then he would go back to his room. He really avoided us. There stopped being any family life and his friends didn’t come around the house any more.

“I love him so much. I think I love him now more than ever before but I am angry with him because he knew right from wrong. I asked Pete one day--long after the trial, because I just couldn’t talk about it for a long time, ‘How could you kill a friend?’ And he told me that he had no regard for his own life, therefore he had no regard for Steven’s life and Steven was involved with this, also. He knew Steven had no regard for life, even his own life, so it seemed it didn’t make any difference to anyone at the time. Yes, I still love him and I always will be here for him and I have to accept that this is his life, this is just the way it is and I have no choice--!

“I should have paid attention because I saw the record covers and I saw satanic symbols on this book work and I even spoke to him about it. He said it didn’t mean anything and I wouldn’t have even known what to look for anyway. I assumed all that was a passing phase--I assumed wrong. Please, you other parents, don’t ignore it. It doesn’t ‘pass’, it is something I will never get over--never.”

And again, Pete: “The music was like when we killed animals, it was like it just went around and around in your brain. I can see the thoughts just like they are real. Yes, it just went completely through your mind. I can see the hurting someone you know, torturing people and just all saying Hail Satan and whipping of tied-up ones around you. After you listen to this hours and hours a day every day, for years or even months, it can get to you.

“Steve got chosen as the victim just because he was a human and was there--just because we could deceive him easy. When he was hit the first time I looked down and it just kind of sounded like ‘pop’ and I knew what it was so I looked up and Steve’s eyes were real big, you know, and he just said, you know, ‘Why me?’ He just looked like he was really sad and someone said, ‘Because its fun, Steve, and we’re all just like vultures, you know.’ We just went crazy. I don’t know how many times we hit him--a lot.

“I look at my hands and I think these can’t be the same hands that killed him and I mean, I know that they are, but it doesn’t seem like it, you know. I would never want to kill anybody ever again. Right after we did what we did I just. . . . well, I felt real empty inside. I felt I could never love again, you know, like a zombie. The devil really double-crossed me; he just leads you on to destruction and here I am in jail without even parole . . . .”


SEAN SELLARS

And now let us go back briefly to Sean Sellars, condemned to die by lethal injection because of the murder of his mother, his step-father and a convenience store clerk. Let us hear what this youngster says after hearing denials that Satanism or music has anything to do with brutal activities.

“Oh, I’ve heard all that before. The satanists say that it is not the teaching that is wrong, that it is the person that is wrong but, I can’t use satanism as a cover for my own violence because it all boils down to being one’s own responsibility as to what you do. But they tell lies--lies all the time. You see, satanists believe good is evil and evil is good and of course that is the basis of the whole satanic thing. They, the satanists, believe evil is good--and that is what I believed.

“They will claim the Satanic bible is not taken literally but we all take it literally. Millions of people are taking it literally all around the world. The facts are that teenagers are drawn into the cults and a lot are being used for the cult sacrifices and there’s been so much denial, but it is true. What is worse is that there is so much pain and gore and blood and stuff but really, no one shows you how to get out once you’re hooked inside. Ones trying to get out sometimes call me or their parents call -- and, well, one in Texas called about her daughter but said she didn’t want her daughter out just ‘to become a Jesus freak or anything like that’. Well, I just couldn’t help her because there isn’t any other way out--you have to turn to a Christ of some kind because that is all that can get you out. And the destruction just goes right through families, for instance that Texas girl destroyed three other lives because she went to live with her Aunt and Uncle and the mother ended up insane in an institution.

“I sure do believe in the devil but I don’t worship the devil any more. I am a Christian--I stand up boldly and proudly and say I am a believer in the Christ way. There is just no other way out of satanism except through the Christ path because Satanists curse everything that is Christian in truth.
“The big problem about this whole issue is that the lies from the orthodox Christian churches causes the kids to be turned off. They go to church and preach one thing and then go right back to doing all the stuff they just denounced. It’s really hard, man, really hard to understand.

“The problem is that the crimes are so heinous that people don’t want to believe that any adult would do these things to a child and I don’t know specifically about the Church of Satan and Mr. LaVey or The Temple of Set and Mr. Aquino, but these awful things and sacrifices really do take place. I went out and killed that clerk just because I had broken all the laws but the one of murder--I just chose the first one that was handy, really.

“The night I killed my parents, I did my thing with the rituals and boy, I really got worked up over them butting into my business and I listened to the music and got really worked up . . . . I just decided to do it.

“I didn’t remember for a long time about it--the killing, I mean. And now I have nightmares every night and I nearly go out of mind in remembering. I see myself standing there by their bed and blood is pouring out of my mother’s face and spurting all down the wall and puddles on the bed--and I’m laughing--I’m hysterical and laughing and laughing and laughing.

“I don’t know about dying here. I guess whatever they decide is what will happen. But I think you should look at what I was before I got hooked and what I am doing now--the good that I am doing now--because I can reach a lot of people with my own story. Well, I could just do a lot of good.”

So be it, so be it. Pray for your children and open your eyes--for some it might not be too late. Selah. Let us close this portion and have a rest break, Dharma. I choose random geographic locations in these inputs for you must come to know that it is everywhere--everywhere!


I move to stand-by.

I AM SANANDA